I'm 30 years old, single, and have a job that keeps me on the road. I have an awesome family and many wonderful friends, but at the end of the day I feel so alone. It has been over a year since my last relationship, which really tore me apart. I have always been a strong girl, but he really rocked my boat. I find when I meet people now I become scared and vulnerable and expect them to leave me. I try to go into each situation with an open mind, but I live in this fear.
I just don't want to feel lonely anymore and it seems like the more I try and put myself out there, the more I get shot down. With the new year upon us, I have been trying my best to have a positive attitude about life and remind myself I am blessed in so many ways. I will be fine for a while, but then I just feel so lonely and cry. I use to have confidence in myself and don't know where that went?!? This is the first time I have ever reached out to a source other than my friends and family. I hope this place will bring some light in my life. I just don't know where else to turn? I have been thinking about seeking medical attention, but just haven't had the time to set anything up. I don't know if anti-depressants are the answer, well I'm sure they won't fix it all, but maybe help cope?
I guess my biggest fear is spending the rest of my life alone. I have many people that love me, but as for a partner that seems so far off. I want to believe in myself and have confidence that I deserve something great, then I think well some people never get that chance and why am I any different than them? I know I may not find the answers, but maybe there are some people on here going through a similar situation.
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