it's destroying me being so alone

[Tom57]

As of now, the only friend I have had a couple of falls and is in the hospital emergency room now. It's not looking good. Losing him is going to be devastating.

I don't make friends easily.

I find myself feeling tense. At where I live it's hot now. Doors and windows have to be opened for me to feel comfortable and there are times I'm getting some unwanted noises.

[Tom57]

My friend is at a skilled care nursing home now and in tremendous pain. He and talked briefly today and I feel bad for him. He said that he may come back home but there's no telling when. Even if he fully recovers, which that would be a miracle, he won't be the same. So it's very sad.

If worse comes to worse with him, some would say that someone else would come along for me and be a friend. There had been a lot of times when I wanted to replace him as a friend along the way but I've never been able to. It's not going to be easy.

[Tom57]

My friend seems to be doing better now. He and I have been talking lately, which is a pretty good sign. We talked briefly yesterday and for a while last night. He and I talked for a while today also. He's in less pain and is enthusiastic about the physical therapy sessions. He has some ups and downs with health issues other than pain. There's talk that he may be able to come back home fairly soon.

It's amazing that he's had all kinds of health setbacks and yet he always bounces back. Hopeful he'll bounce back well this time.