Suicidal thoughts not often but there

[bluejay23]

I seem pretty put together however I do really struggle at times. I try to stay very strong for my daughter. But sometimes I have thoughts of suicide which scare me. I feel like I'm happy with who I am and very fortunate to have my daughter and family but still those thoughts overwhelm me sometimes. I don't think I would do it... but at those moments I feel like there really isn't a place for me here. It makes me feel weak... and wish I didn't resort to that kind of thinking. It makes me feel very out of control. And disappointed in myself.

[stillwaters]

hello bluejay23.
I am glad you found this website. I hope you find as much support here as I have.
I am sorry you have had these bad thoughts. I read your other post and see you have made an appointment with a Dr which is good.
Once when I was feeling completely overwhelmed and considering suicide, I called a help line. The woman that answered helped me to see that it was my problems (both real and imagined) that I was trying to escape, not my life.
It is the depression that makes you feel weak, out of control and disappointed, but with the proper health care you can be helped. Please do not give up hope.

[bluejay23]

Thank you for reading my post and responding... I was scared to put myself out there and have no one write anything. I'm happy I found this site too! It's helping already... it makes me feel a ton better knowing there's so many others that can relate and have so much to teach me. I'll try to keep an eye out for your posts and if you ever want to talk just shoot me an email.