who am i

[CE1988]

my first post. let me start by saying i suffer from bipolar disorder and im manic depressive. everything pisses me off and my mood and out look on life can change in an instant. i was unfortunate to have been born addicted to most street drugs witch didnt help the way i c life. my whole life has been ful of antiphsycotics and behavioral meds none of them having any effect.i feel paranoid all the time. and i rock back and forth to allow myself to think and relax. im so sad and life sucks but i cant tell u why. i dont want to be alone anymore. THIS IS MY CRY FOR HELP