Alone is not Lonely, Lonely is the worst alone...

[MusicTone]

I like being alone...in fact its when im at my best. Im not necessarily lonely all the time, but its when i realize that im alone that I become lonely and everything..well it just seems dark. I no longer feel like talking to my friends or even getting out of bed in the morning. Missing class is a difficult choice every morning because I feel like im going to run into certain people on my way there. I keep my head up so that I can see at a distance if anyone that I know is heading my way. If so, I quickly look down and pretend to look for a song. I don't even listen to music whenever I walk to class or when I have my headphones on. I just keep them there so that no one will talk to me. I want to be left alone..all alone with no one to feel sorry for me. I do not want to accept knowing that I might be depressed, because honestly denial is the only thing that keeps me going. I cannot keep going like this. I no longer want to feel alone because I do not want to be lonely.

[purdyflower]

I feel the same often. I do not mind being alone. I live alone and am alone most of the time. If I tell people that, they often say,"don't you get bored?" or "Why would you want to be alone?". I really don't know why. I just am not one of those people that need to be around people all the time. And I do have the same thing with going to class. I often will skip class because I don't want to be around people. I don't want to see anyone or hear anyone. And then later I feel so lonely! It's so confusing! I like to be alone, and then I hate my self for liking to be alone! I do not have a solution, I'm sorry! but I think I do know how you feel.

[Amanda]

I have suffered with depression for as long as i can remember. When i was in school i would go to the bathroom and hide myself in a cubicle to eat my lunch because i didn't want to talk to anyone, i couldn't talk to anyone, but i didn't want people to see me sitting alone so i'd hide until it was time to go back to class. This pattern has continued throughout my life. When i get really depressed i isolate myself, because i can't deal with any kind of social interaction. it's harder to hide from ur family and friends so i'd switch off my phone and hide in my bedroom. my tendancy to isolate myself is how i can identify a particularly bad bout of depression is imminent. It can't be ignored, it doesn't go away no matter how much you try to deny it. In fact it gets worse. I kept myself isolated for so long at one point that i had nothing but my own skewed thoughts to keep me company. It lead to a suicide attempt. I had been in my own head for so long that i just didn't even register what my actions would do to my family, i didn't care about myself. What i'm saying to you is admit there's a problem and talk to someone before it gets to a point where you can't.

[MidnightGhost]

I like being alone...in fact its when im at my best. Im not necessarily lonely all the time, but its when i realize that im alone that I become lonely and everything..well it just seems dark. I no longer feel like talking to my friends or even getting out of bed in the morning. Missing class is a difficult choice every morning because I feel like im going to run into certain people on my way there. I keep my head up so that I can see at a distance if anyone that I know is heading my way. If so, I quickly look down and pretend to look for a song. I don't even listen to music whenever I walk to class or when I have my headphones on. I just keep them there so that no one will talk to me. I want to be left alone..all alone with no one to feel sorry for me. I do not want to accept knowing that I might be depressed, because honestly denial is the only thing that keeps me going. I cannot keep going like this. I no longer want to feel alone because I do not want to be lonely.

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