really questioning my future

[purdyflower]

Ok soooo. I am a psychology major. I have one year left. I have major depressive disorder. I have been in therapy for about 5 years, and I am alot better, but I still deal with depression often. I also self harm sometimes. not like I use to however. I'm so worried though, because I realllly want to help people. Especially people I can relate to, with depression and stuff. But I think, can I really help people when I can't even help my self!? When I still have alot of depression, suicidal thoughts, some self harm? I'm just so scared my future will lead to nowhere! I want to help people but I'm afraid it will be one of those things where I should "practice what I preach" but I don't and can't help anyone because I'm so screwed up myself. I have no idea if any of this makes sense! I'm rambling, but it is something that has been on my mind for a while! Any opinion? if not that's ok.

[MidnightGhost]

No ones perfect, not any one of those psychologist you see, are near perfect,
IN FACT, the best psychologist are the ones who have been through hell and back..and more than once. But look, the truth is, this is just fear in your way, then it creates doubt. Rest assure, if this current worry, about you reaching something you want wasn't here, it'd be something else. Face your fear, by going towards what you want regardless.