I just want to feel normal =P

[Kattix]

So frustrated lately ... worried that my marriage might end. Maybe that would be a good thing ... not sure ... Not sleeping probably isn't helping lol. Rationally I know I have a decent life. Have a secure well paying job, married, have family, and some friends. Don't know why I always feel so alone and unlovable. Don't feel comfortable talking to friends .. they just do not understand unfortunately. Hesitant to go on meds. My husband is on meds that he will never be off of. I want to work through to the other side if I can. One day at a time ... Anyone else suffering with this .. my heart goes out to you. Please hang in there.

Kattix

[dd-va]

Hi Kattix,
I can definetly identify with your post! I have what anyone looking in from the outside would see as a happy life, but for whatever reason, I am unable to find the happiness that should be there. I have learned that it is very difficult for others that are not dealing with these feelings (friends and family) to completely be able to understand them, or to know what to say, how to react to our feelings. That is what brings me to this forum and to the chat room here on a daily basis. Here I am able to speak the truth in what I feel and have people that understand and can identify with these feelings. I hope you find that here as well. Take Care & Keep Posting!

[Kattix]

Thanks dd =) Appreciate your post ... and exactly ... no one would suspect that I am so unhappy. I'm very good at acting normal and putting on a happy outgoing front to others. The few that I have let in seem to think that I just need to get over it. So I stopped talking. I don't really want to wallow in it .. only reason I was worried about posting in a forum ... but looking for others who understand definitely helps =) Need to get over my bluesy thoughts though .. off to work ... yey? lol Thanks again .. and take care of you too!