depressed again (Triggering Material)

[katesmith]

I have been suffering with depression and i also suffer from high functioning autism. I have a lot of problems with depression and none of my stuff that use to work works anymore to side track me from it. Really I am having a crisis and i have trouble not overdosing or not doing any cutting. Hopefully soon i go to respite and i can learn more coping skills, but i really do need a crisis bed at respite. I dont want to go back to the hospital even though i am very suicidal. I hope I get over this soon, the doctor is trying to adjust my medications and my moods have not been doing good lately. I am again having problems and i refuse to go to the hospital again to get mistreated again.

[balcony]

(((((katiesmith)))))) I have seen you in the chat room too. I am very sorry that you are having such a rough time. Listen to your doctors and do the necessary things, even if it means hospitalization, to get through this terrible period. Stay in communication with your healthcare provider and take action in crisis, kate. You can get through this. We are here and are thinking of you, Kateiesmith. Post again soon, and see you in chat.

[katesmith]

I see the doctor again tomorrow. I will tell the doctor everything that is going on. Including my fears of fearing that things are going explode in front of me.

[balcony]

Ok..that sounds like a good idea, kate. Please let me know how it goes...Strong HUGS and good thoughts.

[katesmith]

i went to the doctor today and he prescribed me SAPHRIS and he gave me the 5 mg of it and told me to take one and if one does not work to take another one. He told me if that does not work to go to the hospital this weekened and he made me promise him i would if i felt bad enough that i would go to the hospital. I will try it out and see how i will do for now. I just took the medication.

[balcony]

Kate, I am thinking of you. Remember what your doctor said and remain calm throughout the weekend. I hope the new medication helps, but, if you do not improve or feel worse, do as he says and go the to the ER. I will be checking the forum all weekend, take care....strong hugs

[balcony]

Hi Kate..just checking in, hope you are feeling a bit better. (((katiesmith))