THE THOUGHTS

[Only Mika]

I hate having thoughts that i know in my rational mind, I would never think. For example, the wanting to get up and go walking outside in the middle of the night or the thought of screaming. Where do these thoughts come from. They are not proactive and wont help. So, why wont they go away.

[Obayan]

I get those thoughts too. Just out of the blue. I used to try to ignore it but that didn't help. It just make them come back more frequent and stronger. So now i acknowledge they are there. I speak out loud and say, I know I want to do this, but it's not appropriate right now, so what i'm going to do is wait. Not long. Maybe in the morning or tomarrow afternoon, but i will wait. It seems to help because rather than fighting the thoughts and feelings, i'm recognising them as a need. But that's a promise you are making to yourself that needs to be kept. Tomarrow, when the timing is appropriate, go out in the yard and walk around a bit. That way, the next time you make that promise, you can't end up in an argument with yourself over broken promises which will just make it worse.