so much sadness

[paulapjseven]

I am having such a hard time for the past couple of days with this overwhelming sadness. My depression continues, but yesterday and today it has such a tight grip on me, that I am not sure if I'll be able to shake it off this time. I have been crying since I woke up this morning. I know the holidays are coming and they will be especially difficult this year, since my STB-ex won't be here. My original post (abandoned and depressed) under 'my story', tells about him leaving me after our long marriage.
I don't really want to bother my sister or my friend with all this sort of down in the dumps stuff, and my negative thoughts. I feel like I am always complaining, and I don't always want to be a burden to them, but I need someone to talk to right now, or someone to straighten me out.

[Obayan]

Hi paula. We do have a chat room here that is great for immediate support and it is very helpful over the holidays. I hope to see you visit us there hon. I've seen you post quite a bit on here and i'm so sorry that life has you so down right now. I know you've made a good friend here in eric. I hope that between eric's good heart, and the forums and the chat room, i hope you find strength to make it thru your rough time.

[forgiven]

Paula,you know I am right there with ya,I even feel a little guilty for not being happy in my Marriege,I've hide nothing from my Spouse so she want be shock in anyway,she is unhappy too and it does show,she seems to hate on Me a lot,but that doesn't even bother Me anymore.
Hon,I wish I could wave a Magic Wond and make all this go away,but it's just not going to happen,you have to impower yourself to pull out of this nose dive,you have to get some kind of Game plan,I'm just not willing to spend the rest of my life,wallowing in Depression and self-pity,are you?
You do make a difference and you are loved,You will find the more you reach out the better you will feel about yourself,you continue to reach out and reach UP!

[shakirah]

Hi Paula i know your having a difficult times now but you do need your immediate family as they know you better and get along of felling so down. The best thing you gonna have to go is get out in your place and have fun. Because no one in this world like to be sad the time.