My Heart

[daydreamer]

Hey Crystal,

I am new to this site and read your profiles. I was touched on how you have been going through so much but also being very strong to battle this. I have been dealing also with depression for years. I have been on so much medications that I had to take a break from it. I hope in time that you just as I have to also, will break that demon from attacking our mind and heart.
I've been battling this myself as my depression has gotten worst. I have an amazing little son and pray he will never go through this. I've also learned that in a cold world, you need more then friends to keep you warm. This is truly a cold cold world.
I wish I was strong as you and not get my heart involved with anyone. We can say negative words to others which have been said to me a lot that we just can't take back. I wake up in sweats, having all type of nightmares, after people yell at you out of anger, its hard to forget.
I know I am writing so much... sorry... I am just happy for you and hope you will get better.
JT

[xken728]

hope your feeling ok Onika and i wonder how the tests went ,dont worry to much ,i hope your looking forward to xmas ,Im sure ill see it when you post the results ,stay safe Onika ,warm wishes Ken and Fran

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((((( crystalgaze )))))))))))))))))

Where are you sweetie? You doing all right?

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

Okay! I finally got all of this together! Let's see.... There were a few premature beats or as the doctor said "premature ventricular contractions".

Everything else was fine & dandy!


Also, daydreamer! Thanks for your kind words & for dropping me a note! Thank you!!

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((((( Crystal ))))))))))

See me doing the "happy dance" Woohooo.........

Very relieved for you hon. Honest. Considering how things could have been, this is good.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

Warmie, I agree! I'm very grateful!!

Now, I am just trying to work on myself. I actually took my heart medicine today.... I was being such a rebel & hadn't taken it in a while. I will try harder to do what I need to do to take care of it & by taking care of it, show love + kindness to myself.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((((( Crystal )))))))))))))))

Sounds like you are doing your best to put yourself first. This is good.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

It has been acting up a bit, but it hasn't been too too scary. I don't have the motivation to take the medicine properly.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((( Crystal ))))))))))))))

Taking my heart medication is one thing I do faithfully every day. I know what is coming my way and I will do all I can to put it off as long as possible. Good luck, hope you change your mind and do the meds. Please.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

I have more of a plan in place to deal with the heart issue as well as with my weight.

Yesterday, I consulted a friend who has a restaurant & he said he'd be more than happy to help me with my weight loss + health goals. I decided I may try it out, which will solve the eating right part of the plan.

The food will be really different than I'm used to eating, but I heard it might be able to do some wonders for the body.

The exercise part of the plan has 5 options. I could ask a lady I know if she would want to do some outdoor exercising together, since we both expressed we wanted to drop a few pounds.

My boyfriend has also been encouraging me as well. He said he would exercise with me, whatever it was.

Another man I am acquainted with a little said he would help--if I didn't mind. I could also exercise with my Dad.

I am also in the process of getting the house together (again) to try to pull this thing off this time....

Well... I'm hoping I can get it done this time!!

[crystalgaze]

I forgot to mention & it was really strange too....

A few weeks ago, I saw a lady whose daughter I met in high school. She was in the pharmacy picking up some medication & she told me that she had these jitters or "nerves".

Based on the conversation & the situation, she was taking an anti-depressant or a mood stabilizer, when she had something wrong with her heart & wasn't being treated for that. (It was something like she was told she had a heart problem of some kind but wasn't given medication yet.)

& so.... I encouraged her to go to the doctor to check her heart, her pressure, her pulse, etc. The doctor gave her some heart medication to take.

She saw my parents & told them she was feeling much better!! (& sent a million thanks) I was totally floored.... It's not like I knew for certain that's what her problem would be, much less a doctor would take her issue seriously....

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((( crystalgaze ))))))))))))))

You advice was right on the mark. Suggesting to talk/see the doctor. That shows the care and concern you share with us.

What a great person you truly are.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

I'm doing my best to take my medicine at least everyday.... Sometimes I take the bottle out of my purse & then I'm unable to take it just when I feel I need it.....

I just solved the problem by dividing my medicine between 2 bottles. ONE WILL STAY IN MY PURSE AT ALL TIMES. (At least that's the goal.)

[crystalgaze]

Okay..... What seems to be wrong with my heart may be something called tachycardia.... Some of the symptoms describe what's going on to a T (racing pulse, sweating like you're pouring water, etc). Mine is not so severe yet, but it's another lead.

[crystalgaze]

Sometimes, my pulse starts racing for no reason & I've had to take my medicine, but I've been able to do without it for the most part.

(I want to see if losing weight will help.)