Heart Ache

[Crista5387]

I kind of disappeared for a few months, not only from the site but in life to. I have been much more reserved lately, and feel myself retracting from society. I'm trying ot work on this, but I think my counceling has been a large part of it. My counclor has had me being more vulnerable and feeling emotions instead of dissociating from them. Which is tough, because it kind of opened up the flood gates of emotions and now i'm working on getting control of them again and not stuffing them away, but actually feeling them.

That was prelude to I met this girl and we dated for a couple weeks, which I know is not very long at all. I am normally a long term monogomous relationship person. But there was something about her, I felt more in those 2 weeks then I have ever felt for anyone. Which was amazing, and I am glad that I now know I can feel that way. But when she ended it I was not prepaired for the emotions I would feel. I have never taken break ups hard(especially from someone I wasn't really even with). Its such an intense pain, and I think it comes from my being vulnerable with someone and finding a real connection. But now I'm left feeling so empty and I can't seem to get over her. Its such foreign territory I dont know how to go about this?!

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((( Crista5387 )))))))))))))))))

A day at a time, a moment at a time. Wish I could give you the answer, make you feel better. All I can do is send a warm hug and let you know we are here.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

(((((((((( Crista )))))))))))))))))))

First off, glad to see you again!

I don't know if this may help, but perhaps you can cherish it for what it was? (e.g. that you actually connected with someone, felt alive, etc.)

Take care please!

[Crista5387]

Thank you, both of you. I'm goin one day at a time. And it's alright, each day is a little easier... or atleast I keep telling myself it is . I am thankful for the experience and knowing that I'm capable of making that strong a connection, now I just hope my body knows how to get over having it.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((( Crista5387 )))))))))))))))))

Your body and mind will meet up, given time. A lesson in life and the saying is we have many lessons to learn from life. You are in my thoughts, keep trying, all you can do.

Warmie

[Obayan]

Now that you know you can have these feelings, don't stop looking for someone to share them with. Just don't overwhelm them with too much too fast. I wish you all the luck in the world.

[crystalgaze]

Just a thinking of you Crista!! ((((((((( Crista )))))))))))

I was able to get through mine as well. Looking back, I realize that mine was not very healthy. Oddly enough, in my case, I did not process my situation properly that I was not being treated well enough. What I went through was actually NOT NORMAL. I'm out of that now. The guy says he wants me back, that he loves me, yadda yadda, but all of that is in the past now. I don't believe what he says mainly because if he had treated me properly, I would not have left. It was actually that simple.

Here's to us both getting through & past our hurdles + continuing to get through them!!