BotE?: Trigger

[crystalgaze]

BotE = Beginning of the End (Possible trigger)
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Well, I actually don't feel like I will make it.

[TackingIntoTheWind]

(((( crystalgaze )))), I can say quite truthfully that I do know EXACTLY how you feel. I often feel the same way. As if, to quote Star Wars, " There'll be no escape for the Princess this time. " It's a terrible feeling, bleak, empty and desperate. What I do at times like that, and it's not easy for me by any means, is remind myself of how many times that I've felt that I just COULD'NT make it that time, and yet somehow by the Grace of God and with a LOT of help from my friends, I have made it, and had better times afterwards, at least for a while.
Or, to quote one of my favourite TV programmes, a quote that helps me, " You're not as stuck as you think you are. There's another way. " ( Christopher Chance, The Human Target. )
Please, hang on just a little longer, (((( crystalgaze ))))! For one thing (((( crystalgaze )))), I depend on you guys here too much to lose anyone one of you! You're too valuable a person to lose!

[xken728]

No ,it is not the end ,it just feels that way .and even if you feel that way .
It may not be the end at all , just the beginging of something else .
Your to strong to give up ,We your freinds know that much about you at least . Now use those eyes so blind with pain ,to look around and see how so many care , best wishes Ken and Fran,,

[crystalgaze]

Ya... I felt pretty bleak the other day... I was having a moment that I don't give a voice to most of the time. Two things are currently killing me in my life: a combination of loneliness + heartbreak. & it's pretty maddening to me because heartbreak seems to be occurring for what I feel is no reason.

Those are what I must try to fix, but I don't really know how I'm going to go about it--with all my hang-ups to boot.

For now, I'll chalk it up to it is what it is. I was in not-so-great of a place. S-mode is not a nice place to be. That's my admission. I feel if I at least admit it, I won't be living in denial (or at least too much denial).