My story in brief

[Irelandian]

Basically all over feelings for my best friend. Sounds so stupid but have been down for ages but recently it has got really bad. We had a row 2 weeks ago and i have not heard from her since. Basically, i met her 4 years ago when we worked together. We became best friends and did everything together. She left and got a new job but we still talked everyday and met up from time to time.

She said on on numerous ocassions to me that i was the best person she has ever met and that i was her soulmate. While we worked together she wwent out with a guy we both worked with. Last August they got married. She had a small wedding and only invited a small group.


She invited me but i said no. She understood because she knew i was in love with her. She knows i love her so dont know why she would say things like i am her soulmate and the best person she met which messes with my mind even more.


A few weeks ago she invited me to her place for dinner with her and her husband and because i said no she got upset. I dont talk to her husband in work so how awkward would it be to turn up at his for dinner.

Just over 2 weeks ago a mutual friend of ours arranged for him and her to come to mine for dinner. On the day, he text and said he wasnt feeling well. I just expcted plans to go on as normal. She text and said lets do something else. I just said lets stick to the plan and come over to mine.

She hung up on me and later that evening she sent me an email saying that i should get rid of my ******* ego and that people just see me as this sad person among other things. If she knew me she would know i lack confidence and self esteem so how can i have a big ego.

Anyway she ended of saying if i wanted to keep this friendship that i should get rid of my ego. I replied defending myself but not obeing mean to her. That was 2 weeks ago and i have not heard back and dont know what to do.

Its basically a lose/lose situation for me. Never have the chance to be with the only person i will love this much. Stay friends with her and i will always feel like this. I would die for that woman. I am just so depressed and have no idea what to do.

Asked a mutual friend of ours has he spoken to her recently. He said she called him 2 days ago and invited him to Oktoberfest with her and her husband. Casually asked him how she felt and he said she seemed in a good mood which just made me 100 times worse when it seems she couldn't be bothered at all.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((((((( Irelandian ))))))))))))))))))

Thank you for sharing. I am hoping that just getting it out, in the black and white stage, will be of help to you.

I can't give advice or suggestions, but I can send warm thoughts and hugs your way. Life gets crazy but I have always been told that things do happen for a reason. What the reasons are, well they aren't always clear in the beginning. And yeah, will admit when someone tells me that it seems to be the last thing I want to hear, so will send apologies along to you, don't mean for it to seems harsh.

Do continue venting here, get support from others.

Warmie

[Irelandian]

What should i do?

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((( Irelandian ))))))))))))))

I don't have answers, can only be supportive. Best I can offer.

Warmie