How Are You Feeling?

[lisalou]

thank you warmie, i do indeed need a hug,i just hurt so much and feel really desperate,got some really horrible feelings tearing me apart. my mood swings have been really extreme lately. plus a sense of overwhelming terror which leaves me frightened and worried most of the time. physical health problems are getting worse and worse and i cant see an end to pain until i am dead. My whole life is just completely unstable right now - financially and employment-wise (when will i be well enough to go back to work and how can i when i am still extremely mentally unwell and hate the thought of going anywhere near the place). Still fighting to get some Disability Living Allowance, have a tribunal next month,terrified. Above all it is my worries about my relationship with my boyfriend that really hurt me,he's just never around any more and often i dont see him for days and days,he keeps himself so busy with other things and has all these plans for the future which never include me. he is talking about going away with his friend's theatre company next year to do some acting around Europe for FIVE MONTHS, i'm sorry,I really want to be a bigger person and support him with following his dreams but all I can think of is how awful it will be to not see him for that long and i'm extremely concerned that it's throughout the autumn and winter when my depression is at its absolute worst. i feel really abandoned already and sad that he is completely not bothered about seeing me for that long - i wouldnt even contemplate being away from him for 5 months. It shows our relationship has completely deteriorated because we used to do so many things together and were so in love and now everything revolves around his independent interests and friends. I barely saw him throughout most of the last few months as he was totally preoccupied doing theatre stuff and now it all starts again as of next week when he begins work on another play and then he's pretty much doing other stuff back to back till he f***s off to Europe. It depresses me beyond belief that he has given up on our relationship and I blame myself for having been so depressed and unable to socialise or talk or do much with him and for putting him through my emotional meltdowns for so long. also we have not had sex in a very long time as i am in too much pain and have completely lost interest with feeling so low. I love him so very much though and without him i really wouldnt want to live any more. it's hard enough to hold on as it is

[Obayan]

Sending you warm wishes lisalou. And a big hug. I'm sorry things aren't working out for you right now.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Feeling that changes in life are good for me at the moment. Well past due.

[Jaymn]

I'm feeling calm and relaxed right now and focused. I guess it's just the calm before the storm though...

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((( Jaymn ))))))))))))

Hoping it is just a good day for you.

Me, a little nervous, back to work tomorrow. Some personal issues in my life I am facing, but all in all doing my best to be positive.

Warmie

[Jaymn]

I'm sure you'll make it Warmsoul.

Right now i'm feeling ok. Just got through exercising in 80F degree weather. Still a little tense though.

[lisalou]

P***** off that once again my boyfriend has gone out for the night without telling me,leaving me worrying until i phoned him. Feel low and grumpy after a day of stress about the tribunal I have coming up to get Disability Living Allowance. Phoned the Citizen's Advice Bureau for advice and they said they cant help or represent me and dont know who can. Plus it has been raining all day and I am feeling lousy with a cold

Wow i really am a ray of sunshine. sorry

[Obayan]

((( lisalou )))) Looked like you could use a hug sweetie.

Today, I'm nervous. Daughter passed out again so i'm taking her to the doc. Will post later and let everyone know how it's going.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((( Obayan ))))))))))) Hope all is well. Let me know!

Okay, got to use the old line

I am feeling with my fingers, that is how I am feeling. Aren't I awful??

Warmie

[Jaymn]

(((Obayan))) , (((lisalou))), (((Warmsoul)))
I hope you guys get through everthing alright.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((( Jaymn )))))))))))))

I for one am giving it my all. Hope you are doing well yourself.

Warmie

[Obayan]

Ok, took daughter to doc. He gave her a script for infection and said she and the baby are doing ok.

Jeanie, one of my fave stories to tell about my hubby is about his sense of humor.

When my husband went in the hospital to have his amputation, they doped him up really good with morphine after the surgery. When the doc came to the room and asked "Mr. Stevens, how do you feel?" My hubby with the straightest face ever, looked right at him, held up both hands and said "with my hands, how do you feel?"

[lisalou]

been awake since 4 in the morning in great emotional and physical pain and having very black thoughts indeed. dont know how i can keep going

obayan,glad your daughter is ok

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

There are times you have to joke about things, else they pull you down. Praise to your husband for knowing that. (((((((( Obayan )))))))))))

Will let you know how I feel after seeing family doctor today. Sure everything is fine, !

[Jaymn]

Depressed, sleepy, worried.