thought up til now ive had a normal life

[princess]

dont know where to start really, my mum was an alcoholic so lived most of my childhood with my dad (once they had split up) had a great relationship with my dad until my first serious relationship at 18 dad didnt approve so i moved out and didnt speak to him for 2 years luckily i met my now husband and started talking to dad again. after my first child was born i kept thinking that she hated me but never shared this with anyone, also lots of sleep problems led to me being like a zombie after this i feel life was ok for a while but then hubby was working really long hours and i was pregnant with baby number 2 it was about 2 years later before i was diagnosed with depression.

i have been on and off antidepressants for about 6 years now but 18 months ago things got worse as hubby lost his job (still hasnt got another) and money problems etc led me back to meds again was doing ok but in the last year my marriage is falling to bits (we are goin for counselling ) then my dad died at christmas and left this big gap and i found out last week that my mum whom i havent spoken to for about 8 years has also past.dont know who i am anymore if it wasnt for the kids i dont think i would be here, thanks for reading

[hollyann]

Princess, I'm sorry to hear of the loss of your parents. Even being estranged from your mom it still had to be a difficult experience for you. I'm glad you have your kids, as often it is strength and love for kids that keep us going, until we have a reason to go on for ourselves. Wishing you the best with the counseling with your husband. Good luck on that.

Holly