My Story

[ErisKuraino]

Hi, I'm 16 years of age, and I'm new to this forum. For the past couple of years, I've developed quite a big inferiority complex. I don't really know where it came from, but I just began to believe that everyone hates me, and that I'm all alone in this world. I have many good friends, but at times, I am left to wonder if they actually care about me in any shape or form. I have spoken to my Mum about it, but now I think I'm starting to develop depression.

For about 2 years now, I've had a huge crush on a guy in my year at school, but I've never managed to tell him how I feel about him. Many would say this is just a crush, but I'm in love with him so much and words cannot express how much I care for him. But what makes this so difficult is that one of my best friends also likes him. This is made worse by the fact that they are close friends, and get along really well. On the other hand, I hardly ever speak to him, as I was in none of his classes at school, but on the rare occasion that we do speak, he's been really kind to me.

Compulsory education has ended for me, and I am returning to higher education at school in September, but he is going to college, along with my friend who also fancies him. I only have at least 3 times left that I can see him, at 2 of my friends parties, and the prom, all this week. I know that if I don't tell him, I'll regret it, but this inferiority complex is holding me back, because I believe that he doesn't like me.

I wake up every morning dreading the day ahead of me, and I often feel like my life is worthless and meaningless. I hate myself because of it, and I have no-one to talk to about it because they don't see the pain in my eyes. At parties, my friends ignore me the whole night, which causes my despression and inferiority complex to worsen, and makes me upset. I just need some advice on this matter, and what I should do before I never get to see him again. Sorry for the long post, needed to get this off my chest.

[Obayan]

Hi. I can't make a decision like that for you. But here are some things to think about.... You are headed off to uni, and that means meeting new people and building the foundations of a life for yourself. Is telling this person worth the risk of losing your friend over especially since there is no way possible anything can come of it because he is going to college with her? I would advise to give it some time. Upon visiting home again at holiday if you still feel the same way, then make the decision. But again, ultimately you are the one who has to live with that decision so it's up to you.

As for the depression, only a doctor can adequately diagnose you. But I would suggest talking to one of the free counselors at your uni when you get there.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((((( ErisKuraino ))))))))))))))))))))

Think over, do you want to keep him in your life in some manner or take the chance of hurting the relationship you have with him. I know of couples that went their separate ways, colleges, starting new lives after, only to return to each other, find that love and make a life. Not saying this is what will happen, just saying, consider your options.

New doors will be opening for you, go through them, check out what is there before closing them and in the end not knowing.

Warmie