Frans Thread !

[Mich]

Ken - wondering how things are with you and Fran today. I hope you have had a good night's sleep and that things are looking up today.

[xn728]

hey (((((mich)))),,first of all i would like to say i hope your feeling ok ,,i know your not well ,,with your demons just now ,,but hang in there girl ,,were all rooting for you ,,dont forget what happened for me ,,and the new yppah,,it could happen for you to mich ,,,ok oh and by the way i still have my happy even though i have been run down by fran being poorly i do still have my happy safe ,,,Well mich Fran has had her second good nights sleep and today is a vast improvement ,,shes up and about doing little bits of things ,,,i didnt sleep well but i think thats because the meds are needing to get back in my system ,,im sure well both be fine by the time the bank holiday gets here ,,ok ive got to go now ,,i will keep letting you know how fran is going you take care ,and keep yourself safe
remember mich ,,so many miles are between us all ,,but all you have to do is call out ,,and i will answer ,so you may know your not alone ,,,
hugs ((((((((((hugs dear mich)))))))))),,,hugs all ((((((((((my dear freinds )))))))))),,,lots of love Ken and Fran xxxxxxxxxxx

[xn728]

Fran has been better the last few days but last night was terrible even i thought for a few minutes she might die ,,but it has passed and we got through it ,,i,ll explain better when i have more time but it was a deeply upsetting event ,,,today were ok ,,i miss you all and i mean (((((ALL OF YOU ,WEATHER YOU NEW OUR OLD HERE !!))))) TALK TO YOU ALL AGAIN SOON ,please take care ,,hugs ((((((everyone)))))),,lots of love ken xxx

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Fran is becoming more ill as the long weekend has progressed,,her lungs are burning again and she is finding it hard to breathe,,,,life gave me ,
another crippling blow today ,,I have lost my job !!dont know what to say really ,,love you (((((ALL)))),,,,,ken and fran xxxx

[Mich]

I am so sorry to hear that Fran had a bad night. When is your next doctor's appointment? Are they doing everything they can for her?

I am sorry about your job too. I know what that feels like. What happened?

[xn728]

Hello (((((mich))))),,nice to see your reply ,,i hope your keeping yourself safe ,,we all must be strong ,,weak as i feel i must carry on. Oh mich im so worn out and tired ,,still im wishing you strong thoughts xx
Fran is getting all the help she can ,Im afraid things will get worse ,and ill be left alone it seems like some bad weird nightmare ,,one day shes fine ,the next shes poorly ,,i love her you know ,so much ,i can look at her and just weep ,,oh must stop it now ,,silly old man ,,
OK mich dont worry about the job ,,they said i had become unreliable ,,to many times called home ,and to many days off ,,but its a good thing really ,fran hated being left on her own ,and i hated leaving her ,,if my mobile phone would ring at work ,i would just go into a big panic ,,having my phone was like playing russian ruolette waiting for the phone to go off ,if you get my meaning ,so things will be hard finacialy ,but at least she,ll have her precious Boo at home ,ok mich you stay safe and we,ll talk again soon ,,thankyou so much hugs (((((mich))))),,lots of love ken xxxand fran xxx

[lisalou]

hiya kenny p,how are you and fran today? hope you both managed to get some sleep. sorry to hear about the job but as you say,you will be relieved to be able to keep an eye on fran all the time. do you get carer's allowance? if not you should definitely apply for it now you will be looking after her full time. hope you guys get a lucky break soon

Lisa x

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hey lisa im glad ive heard from you i can stop worrying about you now ,,hope your doing ok ,,,well i was on the phone yesterday for 67 minutes filling in the damn forms ,,and ive sent for some dla forms for fran ,,,we dont get anything for her at the moment ,,but the doctor says he will be willing to give us a letter about her health ,,sorry she does get the lowest form for mobility ,,but were at the stage now were she wont let go of my arm shes that weak ,,dont worry im under a lot of pressure but sometimes it seems to make me thrive ,,,,i hope your ok and please look after yourself lisa ,,hope to talk again soon hugs (((((lisa))))),,lots of love ken and fran xxxx

[xn728]

Things are not good ,and im feeling very distressed,,hugs (((all))),,,,,,,,,
love Ken and Fran xxx

[crybaby1086]

((((Ken)))) You and Fran are in my thought's I hope things get better soon. I wish there was something more I could do. Robyn

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hey (((((robyn))))),,nice to see you ,,please take care hope things are ok ,,,,you know im sorry to say this but right now ,for all the strength ive had to have ,for Fran ,,i feel like im up against that wall ,,,and you know what ,i wish someone would hurry up and shout FIRE !!!,,,,,you take care
and hugs (((((ROBYN))))),,,,GO STEADY NOW ,,lots of love ken and fran

[Mich]

((((Ken & Fran)))) I am so sorry to hear things are not going well. I feel so helpless so far away. Please know that I am thinking of you both.

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your kind words are help enough mich ,,and just to see your words lets me know your ok ,,these are very hard times i wont hide it ,,sorry ,but im really having to grit my teeth and trying hard to hold it all together ,,but i will admit im having some very dark thoughts ,,but im holding them back ,
hope your taking care mich ,,you be safe ,,nice to see you hugs (((((mich))))),,lots of love ken and Fran xxxx

[xn728]

The darkness that surrounds me now ,is not of my own making ,but it is destroying me little by little ,hour by hour day by day ,,my mind is not my own once more ,and the things i havent seen for so long ,have now returned ,twisted distorted creatures from within my mind ,or ceatures from a world were i will soon find myself trapped in forever ,,a victim of my own twisted mind ,,i cannot lie ,and tell you all is we,ll but it hurts so much to make my pain yours to see ,im trying so hard to be strong ,but at this moment ,i cant really see anything other than ,anger and wanting to really lash out and scream and rant ,,keeping these things inside is such a strain ,if anyone ,my doctor, was to know what im thinking of all the time ,,i would be in ward 11 ,thats for sure ,,the demons must remain out of sight ,but keeping them contained is breaking me down,,so sorry i feel like im a burden ,,,i must go now ,,,hugs my (((((dear freinds)))))
Goodnight ,,,,love ken and fran xxxx

[Mich]

You have been absent for days and I am wondering how you are doing.