IVE BECOME ADDICTED TO CODEINE

[xn728]

(((((mich))))),,dont worry i have to do it for my own and familys good ,,it came as a shock ,,i thought after 3 weeks i had ,,felt the worsed ,,last night i felt such pain in all my arthritic joints it was incredable ,,if i had codeine,i would have taken it ,,i didnt sleep at all and i feel just wrecked ,,thank heavens i dont have work today ,,,you see i cant take pain killers for my neck till im free of codeine ,,so my neck and back are really painful ,,i dont know if you have any athritic pain ,,,but its like when i bend my back ,,or turn my head it feels like they running on broken glass,,,ouchhhhhh,,,,ok thanks mich for your concern ,,you know old kenny i just keep going ,,i may moan a little ....or a lot lol,,but ill be fine ,,
im gonna have a little sleep in a moment if i can ,,i think ill have a decaf coffee and try and have a little snooze ,,hugs (((((mich )))))lots of love ken xxx

[xn728]

TODAY IS MOTHERS DAY HERE IN ENGLAND so ive been busy giving fran a great day ,,weve been out and about and shes had some nice treats ,,,ive been in the garden getting ready for spring and summer to arrive ,,,yes ill be looking forward to those 2 days LOL,,,,but you know i havent had time to feel any pain ,,,im not taking any new meds yet ,,just the lithium ,,i must take that to keep me stable ,,were else would we put the horse ,sorry ,,but all in all im not doing to bad ,,the pains in my joints havent gone but there not as bad ,,,ok thats the update over ,,hope your all doing ok ,,i think of my freinds here all the time ,,and even though i dont believe,,in god as such i do pray for you all everyday ,,but you must play your part and take very good care of yourselves ,,,,love you all ,,,
hugs ((((((((((alll)))))))))),,,,love ken xxxxx

[xn728]

The pain of the codeine addiction was very strange indeed ,,a pain i havent ,felt before ,,the things it did to my mind and body ,,became unbearable ,,i was so ill i ddint post much ,,normally i would greet nearly all the new users ,,havent done this for almost a mounth now ,,feel as though im a stranger in a place i once knew well ,,now i dont feel anything ,i posted a message to a new user ,,and it back fired on me ,,a misunderstanding ,,,but it has made me question myself about the way i talk to people ,and today like a seedy little man ,,i have bought codeine from an out of town chemist ,,why because im addicted and i miss it ,,so its hidden in the car ,,,and ill take my dirty little fix in the morning when i get to work ,,i feel nothing anymore ,,i used to love writing posts and welcoming messages here ,,but ive lost what ever it was that drove me ,,im empty ,,and i dont feel a part of anything anymore ,,the codeine
will be my freind ,my comfort , ,,oh it may harm me i know ,,but you know i dont care the xn728,you know so well ,,hes gone his words were taken from him ,because one person misunderstood ,he had just learn to express his love for his freinds and the fact it has been brought into question was to much ,and now when he looks for something to say !!
Nothing comes to hand ,,,,,ken

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

I have removed three postings to this. There are rules both here in the forums and the chat room, all for reasons.

Warmsoul/Jeanie13, Moderator

[xn728]

i dont believe i have not been able to say how much this has upset me ,,a slip maybe ,,i knew i would feel the sharp end of the stick for this

thankyou moderator,,,,,,,every time someone says something to me upsetting to me ,,it turns around so its my fault ,

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Ken,

You really don't want to continue this.

The rules in the chat room are very clear. One nick per chatter. It was brought to your attention. Name calling as you did in your post. that I removed was totally uncalled for. Your being upset I could well understand, the direction you took it was not proper.

If you had an issue you know very well that you could have brought it to me and I would have taken care of the matter. I have before and you know that is the truth.

Now the matter will be dropped.

As the "Moderator"

[Mich]

I am sorry you had that bad experience but please don't hide away from us all. We need you here.

[xn728]

sorry ,mich ,you dont need me at all,,there are plenty of your freinds here to talk to ,,i dont know what to say ,,ive been trully upset ,,,and no one understands ,,,,,xn728

[Mich]

I don't understand what happened....can you share it with me? Please let me at least try to make you feel better as you have done for me so many times.

[xn728]

You dont have to do anything mich ,my words to you have always been given freely , just take care of yourself ,, goodnight xn728

[Mich]

Good Morning Ken - It's a new day and I hope things are looking a little brighter for you today. I know you are struggling a lot right now.