IVE BECOME ADDICTED TO CODEINE

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((((((((heyyyyy onika))))))))),,cheers girl ,,im feeling ok ,,a little tender around the old midriff,,lol,,,,but ive noticed that i do feel better mentally ,
i feel a little posative ,and i dont fear tommorrow coming as much ,,so perhaps the new meds may be starting to kick in ,,the down side is ive been reading some of the new users storys ,and even though they have touched me ,,i cant find any words just yet ,,but im tired and still quite weak so maybe im just not ready yet ,,i would rather write nothing than scribble something down without meaning ,,i think you,ll understand what im saying ,,i hope your ok ,are you doing alright today ,,enjoy your soup did you ,not to much salt onika ,,its bad for you ,,,see i told you im always around lol,,,(((((ONIKA)))))
and all the rest of you guys hope your doing ok ,,and look forward to seeing some of you soon ,,hugs love kenny xxxxx

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(((((((((((Kenny)))))))))))

Hugs to you! Glad you're doing a little better! You are such a brave soul for posting about this! I am glad you did, though! I didn't know stuff like what happened could happen! (codeine tearing up the stomach...)

I never thought it could happen like that....

As for me, I'm so so. I went to find where the doctor's office was that I'll be going to tomorrow....

It doesn't look like a doctor's office really, but it's the only place where I can get in tomorrow basically. I was tempted to cancel the appointment & wait till Monday, where I could see a different doctor, but I am curious. (I only need a referral to a cardiologist, & the sooner I get one, the better because it may be a bit of a wait to be able to see one here....)

It's been said you don't judge a book by its cover. I would like to meet the doctor himself.... He just might be okay. If I don't like him, I can always go to the other doctor I had in mind in the future.

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(((((((((hi onika)))))))),,nice comments thankyou ,,the lining of my stomach is always very tender and sore due to the ibs ,,lisa has this complaint ,,to it is overlooked really ,,but this is a very painful condistion
so the codeine witch i take in liqiud form ,,goes straight to the stomach wall,,occhhhh,,,,,im pleased to hear your going to the doctors tommorrow ,,make sure you tell him/her everything ,,if you feel like it let us know how you got on ,,dont you dare cancel ,,, ,,,,if you cancel i will look like this mmmm actully i think thats an improvement lol,,
ok onika ,,we,ll hopefully talk tommorrow ,,enjoy the rest of your day ,,
hows phil and bob my 2 spy,,cockroachs doing lol,,,,be afraid !!!!
bye for now hugs love kenny xxxxx(((((ONIKA)))))

[Mich]

It saddens me to see you going through such a hard time. As usual, I feel completely and utterly unable to help you. I am glad to read that you are working closely with your doctor on this. I certainly had no idea that codeine was this powerful. My thoughts are with you always. There is candle for you here too.

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(((((mich ))))) you are able to help me ,,ive just seen this post from you and it has lifted me ,,please dont worry im feeling quiet good the last couple of days ,,my tummy is painful but mentally i feel good ,,although ,there was a slight growth on my face this morning and i couldent figure out what it was ,,,then i remembered its called a smile lol,
so thanks mich ,,and you keep telling your phycy things as well ,,im missing you not posting much ,mich so get well soon so we can chat more
hugs love kenny,,,(((((mich))))),,xxx

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Hello everyone ,im feeling pretty sorry for my self just now ,,my state of mind is not very good ,,i stopped the new meds ,i felt they were working to we,ll ,they made me feel like shouting out in the street ,and giddy like a child going to a party ,,i felt big and strong ,and very boistrus ,,i felt happy in a dangerous ,,not quite in control way ,,,i know this sounds stupid but its the best way i can explain how i felt ,,sorry ,,,and coming off the codeine is terrible ,,pains in all the wrong places ,,i feel totally disconected ,,youve seen me up and down ,,and ive said strange things in the past ,,im trying to make sence of it all myself just now ,,,anyway if some of you are upset with me ,,and a little ,we,ll had enough of me ,i dont blame you so dont worry its fine ,,we all go to far some times ,,its me and if it irritates you then ,,just dont read the posts ,,,ok ive stopped the duloxatine ,till ive got off the codeine ,i cant handle too things at once ,
when i feel able i will take the duloxatine again ,,they were working ,but maybe the overboard feelings were due to some reaction with the codiene ,,we,ll have to see ,another thing is i feel like ive lost my ability to comfort my freinds with kind words ,,and id rather be depressed than have that happen ,,see you soon hugs lots of love ken ,xxxxxxxxx

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morning everyone i feel a little calmer this morning ,,the meds are still working ,but they will wear off soon ,,but i am mentally a little more normal lol,,normal yeahhh,,,,i think i can explain better how i felt on the new meds .it was like going out for a drink with freinds and feeling happy and relaxed ,,,but i felt like i was becoming drunk and about to get out of control ,,,ok for now ,,hope i see you all again soon stay safe my dear freinds ,,hugs lots of love kenny xxxxx

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dearest kenny pop,glad your day has got off to a better start. good luck with keeping up the codeine withdrawal

love lisa x

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hey thanks (((((lisa)))))flower ,,i keep up with the codeine ,,i will admit ive been tempted to take more than i should but ive resited ,,fran has been a little off it latley ,,bad breathing ,,,so it keept me busy and my mind on other things ,,,,and as i said somewere else ,,i must think of those around me ,,who may need to lean on me ,,,,i can take the duloxatine ,when i feel able to cope ,,at least ive had a tatse and i know they will work ,,,take care lisa ,,talk when your ready ,,im always here abouts sooner or later ,,,hugs (((((lisa ))))) lots of love kenny pop xxxx

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Hello everybody ,,today has not been to bad ,,ive felt fairly normal ,,,,
whatever that is ,,ok im sure when the meds start wearing off ill be down in the dumps again ,,but at least i can function just now as a loving husband ,,and it seems im feeling like writing again and ive found i can say nice things to my freinds so ,,thats ok for now ,,like onika says ill take it one step at a time ,,get the codeine out of my system,,then start on the duloxatine again ,,ok that it for now ,,,THANKYOU FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT MY DEAR ,KIND FREINDS ,,,ILL SAY GOODNIGHT NOW ,,AND STAY SAFE ALL OF YOU ,,,NIGHT NIGHT ,,HUGS (((((ALL))))),,LOTS OF LOVE KENNY XXXXX

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Hello everyone hope your all doing ok ,,for those of you that are down i will pray tonight that you see some light soon ,,,i miss my absent freinds ,
ill update on the meds here ,,i havent taken any duloxatine for three days now ,,today i have a dull pain in the right hand side of my back ,,like being pushed with a blunt object ,,my vision is slightly blurred ,,and i feel a little weepy eyes ,,not crying but filling up a little with bouts of slight sadness ,,ive made an appiontment at the docs tommorrow about the pain and i think i better tell him about stopping the meds ,,i feel stable at the moment ,,at work i felt a little angry ,,,quite ready to let go at the slightest thing ,,im tired now ,,so im gonna listen to some music soon ,
oh yes ,,you think my life cant get any worse ,,my eldest daughter has has a crash ,,,she,s ok ,,but her car is a write off,,,more stress for ken ,,you see the visitor is real ,,and it will kill me ,,i can see what its plan is now ,,its going to put so much stress in my life ,,ill have a heart attack
simple and not much work on the visitors part ,,,but you know what it can swivel ,,because i have my family to look after,,so the visitor can put as much strain on me as it wants ,,i can bend plenty ,,,see you all soon my dear freinds ,,ill say GOODNIGHT HERE MY DEAR FREINDS PLEASE TAKE CARE ,,AND WE,LL TALK AGAIN SOON ,,,,HUGS LOTS OF LOVE KENXXXX

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((((( Ken ))))))))))))))))

Just a hug coming your way. Sorry I have been busy here of late. Not enough time to do all I need. But thoughts are still with you.

Warmie

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hey ((((((((((warmie girl )))))))))),,,,its ok i now you have lots to do ,so dont worry ,,the old man cant help getting a bit tecthy ,when he misses one of his special freinds ,,i hope your still mending we,ll ,,and that hug was very warm and welcome thankyou ,,,hugs to you to girl (((((((((warmie))))))))),,,,you take care ,,,but dont be a stranger ,,,,
ok ill tell you how im feeling today ,,,not to bad still coming down from the codiene ,,the tingling has gone from my joints ,,but i feel a little irate ,,,and have a very dull headache ,,that seems to persist ,,,also the pain is a little worse ,but im going to the docs today at 4,10pm,,,so ill update again later ,,,hugs everyone lots of love kennny ,,,xxxxxxx

[Mich]

I hope your doctor's appt went well yesterday Ken. I am sorry you have to go through so much with the codeine withdrawl. Did the doctor shed any light on what the pain in your back might be?

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Well thankyou (((((mich))))),its very kind of you to ask ,,,,,im glad to see you posting ive been worried about you ,,ok the doctor said it was a muscular strain ,,,what a load of rubbish ,,my opinon ,,but there you go ,he said had i been lifting anything ,,,no ,,have i fell , no ,,,,i told him the only thing i do ,is when me and fran are out walking she supports on that arm ,,oh that mighnt be it then he says ,,,,,why bother ,,,but thanks mich im ok dont worry ,,you stay safe my dear freind ,,its very lonely without you and lisa ,,and my other freinds ,,ill be glad when we can all get back together HUGS AND LOTS OF LOVE GOODNIGHT ALL
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