Drifting Away ,,,,

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heyyyyyyyyyyy warmie ,yes it is good to get home ,fran enjoyed it ,but we ddint stay long we have to be careful that she doesnt over do it ,and
start a panic attack ,were gonna pop out this afternoon just local though
i like the word mall ,i know its what you call it ,,i watch the comedy everybody loves raymond ,,and king of queens they always visit the mall ,and the pizzarea very good comedys ,better than the english stuff ,we have them on dvd
do you know of them ,,very funny ,,how are you doing girl ,i hope your feeling ok ,,had lots of family round ,and stuff have you ,,i bet you will be busy on new years eve and the day itself ,im looking forward to a new year ,here at home ,and in my forum home with all my freinds ,,,
so much pain i know ,and i think you know it does make me suffer to see it all ,,people seem to enjoy my words and my storys ,also my strange ways of explaining things ,,it does me good makes me feel wanted ,and it lets me know i can help a little ,,,,,any way keep safe my dear freind
hope to see you later hugs for now ken xxx

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Ken, pleased it went well.

Yes those programs are shown daily on some channel here. They won't die out, LOL.

New Year's Eve, no like the movie "Home Alone", was hoping it to be different but it didn't work out. Start the new year off with probably another surgery, oh well.

Make the New Year a good one for you and your family, please. Thanks for caring and being about.

Warmie

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no no no not allowed to be on your own ,,ill be with you ,myself and fran just treat is as a normal day ,,,ill be thinking of all my dear freinds warmie ,and i will project myself into your heart and mind ,and you will not be alone i promise ,,im looking forward to a new year with my freinds here ,im sure your surgery will beneifit you ,less pain hopefully,ill be thinking of you at the time ,,,thanks for your kind words ,hope to see you
later warmie girl ,,,,,dont forget NEVER ALONE hugs ken xxx

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morning my dear freinds old and new ,,how are you today ,feelling not to bad i hope maybe the darkness will lift when we come out of this holiday
,the visitor has me just now were stood at the door to darkness but this time im not walking freely .it will have to push me in there today ,and it does not have the power to do that ,so we may have to fight ,,,look after yourselfs my dear freinds ! hope to see you soon hugs ken xxxxxxxxxx

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(((((Ken))))
As i offer my hand for this short walk today i share with you both my strength and my weakness. To not fight is to give up, without dark there would be no light, without sorrow no happiness. It would be nice if they were more consistent though . Just glad you are here and wish for your good day to last a long time.

Your Friend,
Misty

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misty ,today has not been easy and the visitor ,did take me for only a short period though ,but long enough to show me new horrors ,but i feel a little better now ,but as ive said before ,this pain i carry is of my own making ,so carry it and suffer i must do ,,but as youve just said you can share your strenths and weakness and pain anytime ,,just call out you know were i am ! dont worry about me ,,something protects me so i dont
leave this world and life ,3 times i treid 3 times i failed ,,something wants me to stay here and pay , ask of me what you will if i have it ,its yours
thanks for your kind words ,,misty ,hugs ken xxx

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hey you guys hows it going hope your feeling ok ,things will soon be back to normal ,and we will soon feel a little better i hope ,,the visitor has shown me some new horrors today but fortunaty it only lasted a couple of hours ,it prompted me and fran to talk though so that was a good thing ,i wrote about it in destructive urge ,if you want to look ,,anyway work in the morning ,ill be up early ,,ohhhh not looking forward to that ,,
i hope i see you all soon my dear freinds take care now mmhugs ken xxx
Aim, dandelion,a5,lisa,mich,shatteredhopes,hanging on,monty,blueisgreen,crystalgaze,crybaby,warmie girl.Deepeyes Misty
all my dear freinds, ,,,,goodnight ,,,,,,,,ken

[lisalou]

ken, well done for surviving two pretty big 'triggers' , shopping centres and socialising at the pub are scary things for us, the more depressive of the human species, so huge congrats to you!!!

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THANKS LISA ENJOY YOUR NIGHT IN WITH MARK ,see you soon my dear freind hugs ken xxxxx

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HI everyone hope your not feeling to bad ,the days nearly over now ,ive been accused of not wanting to make an effort ,today so much understanding ,not ! its ok they cant have ths foggyist idea what its like for me ,,anyway i already know that 2010 is going to be a bad year for me ,and i assure you I DO . but the past year has been good for me ,the happiest in many years ,i stopped here when i came across this forum on my
long travels ,and it has made a great differance to my life ,im greatful to you all for your support and ive enjoyed your company ,,this new year frightens me ,every year i just think i cant do it again and today is no differant .last night i drowned out the new year with music and tablets ,so as far as im concerned im staying here in 2009 for a while
eternal chaos ,you were the last one to come in the door yesterday ,im
glad i was here to greet you ! ill catch you all up later ,love ken xxxxx
happy 2009

[lisalou]

Ken, i'm sorry you are feeling so bad again today, i can see why new years can be so bad for you, it's like the feeling i have every morning when i am deeply depressed, that feeling of having to start all over again and that having to do it all is unbearable... but as you say 2009 has been a happier year for you and maybe 2010 will continue to be better. you will have us here at the forum from this first dark day of the year right through all the seasons and all our ups and downs right through to the very end

love lisa x

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hey you guys ,listen im here ,yes i didnt want to be but when i turned the
till on in the shop this morning ,it said 2010 ,there was a big flash of light and damn i was here ,lol seriously the fire was at this time of year and it
always is very hard for me ,,but going to work today has helped and a
dear freind sent me a song just to remind me that things will become more clear ,as we continue our journey ,,hope your all well ,lets get down
to it know ,the hols are over lets make this our year ,
and well try and have a bit of YPPAH along the way everyone love ken xxx
YYYYPPPPPHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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HELLO ALL MY DEAR FREINDS ,its been very cold in the shop today ,i finished work at 2pm and ive only just got warm ,,i work for a dog rescue charity ,and i bet the dogs had more heat than we did today ,we have had tons of snow here in the uk ,and i love it ,it looks so nice ,to see it laying around ,,were forcast more tonight ,,hey LISA i nip up tommorrow and
me you mark and fran can make a snowman ,,look for a orange renault
clio parked nearby lol ,i have been down for a couple of days ,but im feeling pretty up beat right now ,,ive been making fran giggle a lot tonight
i seem to be in a very cheeky mood today ,no really i do feel YPPAH ,and
im looking forward to taking fran to town tommorrow ,i think i just needed to get the holidays out of the way ,and now i feel good again ,i hope your all ok ,and for those of you who suffer at this moment im thinking of you
so dont feel alone my dear freinds ,,ok so ill catch you all later ,take care
and stay very safe ,,,,,hugs ken

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ITS BEEN THAWING OUT HERE TODAY AND A LITTLE WARMER i have not been able to get into the garage all week ,but i got the car in tonight after a bit of digging ,,i daughter shelly has been arguing with HIM again and
i can see her coming home soon ,,thats ok but it will make things a little
hard around here ,i dont get much privasy as it is ,,,the cat will have to come with her as well i suppose ,,oh well the ferrets will keep him busy lol
but i wait and see what happens ,i cant stick my nose in to much ,really
if it was my choice ,i,d have a quiet word with him ,but i cant ,im not that
young kid anymore ,,get my meaning lol,,,works going ok ,its very hard doing the cashing up and stuff ,sort the stuff out ,,good from bad ,,,,
were not allowed to sell electrical items ,,so far ive had an dvd player
a hitachi vidieo ,,ipod docking station ,,and some gameboy games all free
cos they were going in the bin ,,i put a donation in the little box though
ok you guys that it for today ,,hope to see you tommorrow ,,
stay safe ,,dont feel alone goodnight all hugs ken

[crybaby1086]

Hey Ken, Sorry to hear about your daughter. Hopefully things will straighen out for her soon. As for work. I used to hate having to balance the cash too. Used to drive me crazy. But I hope you are still enjoying chatting it up with the customers. Makes the days go faster.