Hello To All

[gwefra]

Hi Eveybody. I'm Gwen. I'm not usually a timid soul, but feeling
somewhat uncomfortable right now since I'm new to this. Brain freeze.
Just hello for now I guess.

[Bonnie]

Hi, Gwen. I'm Bonnie. I'm new too. Just came here a few days ago. Welcome=]

[xn728]

morning gwefra its ok talk more when your ready ,we,ll be here
its a great place the forum ,plenty of kindness and warmth you will meet many new freinds here ,,,we dont judge ,and our differant problems are many but shareing and caring is what we try to do ,,,
busy day today so i will say WELCOME ,AND BLESS YOU THIS MORNING
MY THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU ,,,,,,,,reach out and we will catch your fall
bye for now gwefra,,,,,,,hugs ,,,,,,xn728,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,ken ,,,,england
STAY SAFE Gwen

[gwefra]

Hello All,

Thanks for welcome posts. I'm living in a very dark place right now and have a difficult time reaching out , so I'm very grateful for support. I think the main reason I'm having such a problem is that in my mind I feel like that I am being weak and pitying myself and that if I would just stay positive, all would be okay. But as hard as I try, my happy mask just won't stay in place anymore and I keep falling farther and farther into the darkness. I'm not new to depression by any means, but before I've always had the willingness to fight back and never gave up. This time it's different and I feel like I'm starting to just go away inside and I've lost interest in almost everything. Nothing seems important to me anymore.
Anyway, thanks again.

[xn728]

hi my freind sorry your feeling really bad i cant say anything more than just keep talking when you feel able we will listen and talk back to you we care how you feel ,and i will always look for your post as i do all my freinds ,i know were that very dark place is ive had a good few days but my demon beckons me now ,i must take its hand and walk with it ,we have a deal if i let it stay with me ,it wont take another poor soul ,,,,,
please keep in touch,,we must be trong even in hard times the light will always shine through ,,if i hear you call out in the darkness ,i will shout
back so that you may know your not alone in that place ,,,,hugs xn728 ken,,,,,,,,,,(((gwefra)))

[Mich]

Welcome Gwefra - I know that darkness very well as I live there also. There is great support here so I hope you will continue to reach out to us. The struggle is very hard and it is comforting to know that there are others who share the battle. I hope you can find the strength to fight back again....I bet it is still there...deep inside you. You just need to coax it out.

[gwefra]

Hi Bonnie,

Nice to meet another 'new kid on the block.'


Gwen

[gwefra]

Thanks Ken for hearing my scream from the abyss. I know I'll get better if I can just figure out how to get rid of the hounds of hell nipping at my heels.

[gwefra]

You are probably right. I guess I wouldn't be posting here if there wasn't some spark left. It just frightens me at how low I have sunk into despair and can't seem to get over it.
As sad as it sounds, I do think it is comforting to know that there are others who go thru the same thing but it doesn't make me happy others feel like this. Does that make sense? Sort of like a combination oxymoron, double-edged sword way of putting it.
I know you know what I'm trying to say and thank you for understanding and taking the time to share with me.

[xn728]

always here to listen ,and i will always come running when i hear your crys ,,it is confusing when the darkness covers you but remember these are all tricks ,the dark one will make you blind ,,close your eyes and look with your mind ,you will see us all at your side turn around and see how far you have come on this jorney ,,no room for giving up know ,come now i will carry you for a while ,rest your weary self ,and i will show you
the warmth and light glow of the forum hugs ken xn728xxx

[TackingIntoTheWind]

I hope that this doesn't sound superficial, but I do know what you mean. I felt exactly like that, when I was at my worst about six months ago. Fortunately, I had a lot of help and support, and by the Grace of God, Saint Michael and Saint David, I was able to take the right road at the crossroads, away from the abyss and towards a future and the hope of better days. ( Sorry, for the flowery language, occupational hazard of being Welsh! )
Speaking personally, I AM very much a timid soul, so if I can recover at least partially, I am SURE that you can.
I found it helpful to take things moment by moment, and find things to live for,however small they may be, but giving myself something to cling to, from moment to moment. I've come to feel that recovery, is a journey, not a destination or a task to be completed and then set aside. I keep telling myself that if even if it is one-step-forward-two-steps-back I am still on the road to recovery as long as I keep taking those steps forward.
I really hope that this site and all the support that it's good and wise members can give you will help you to do the same. (If all else fails, wait for someone else to say something wise and then agree with them. It's always worked for me! )

[Monty]

Hi Gwen and Bonnie,

Depression is a very cruel disease.

Please keep posting to us. I think that it is good that you are reaching out for help. This is one of the best places to go because all of us have experience depression, except for one posting that I read recently of someone who visited on a whim, and kind of lean on each other for support.

When things are going poorly we have people to lean on, when things are going better then we are there for others to lean on us.

Have no doubt that you two will be a valuable addition to our forum familyi.