DESTRUCTIVE URGE

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welcome words always ,ill try to do that on the chat , my eyes only see
good in you ,no room for argument ! you have a great time my dear
freind ,and if the visitor should come for me ,during this period ,it shall
see in me such ferosity to stay happy it will retreat into the darkness
from were it came ,and there it will remain till at least the holiday is over
i cant believe how strong i feel ,any minute i expect to wake from this dream ,,,,pinch me please the dissapiontment i couldent bear if this were
to be a dream ,,,,,,blessings warmie girl ,,,love and hugs ,,,ken
and to you all my dear freinds who look but may not feel like talking
love and hugs ,,,,,,ken

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MERRY CHRISTMAS ,EVERYONE OF MY DEAR FREINDS MY THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU TODAY ,,,,,HUGS ,,,TAKE CARE KEN ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Happy Christmas ((((((((((( Ken and family ))))))))))))) !!

"Life may not come with ribbons and bows, yet it is still a gift"

A present, good or bad, year round. Tell your 'visitor' to find his own, imagine Father Christmas would leave him bags of coal.

Take care.........

Warmie

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Hey there warmie ,merry christmas to you and your family also ,,,,,,,
its good here today ,fran and myself are feeling fine ,the girls are here
i do hope your days going well,,thanks for the warm words ,always nice
to hear you ,but extra speacial on this day ,,,,take care warmie girl ,
stay safe ,hugs ,,,and warm thoughts ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,ken

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What great day ,everything went according to plan ,fran has felt well the girls are happy ,,the dinner was perfect ,,i hope youve been ok ,and things worked out for you all to ,,im still feeling happy ,i dont understand this new set of feelings i am expeirianceing ,,happy ,having near normal
emotions ,speaking out instead of being silent and afraid ,worried i may
wake in the morning in the world of darkness ive only known for so many
dark lonely years ,but the blood flows through my veins like a flood now
and the zest i feel for life is making me feel giddy like a young child ,with
a new toy ,so while i feel this new thing inside me i shall use it ,and make
it work for me ,but i wont abuse it ,i will hold it tight and keep it safe ,
the visitor has not been visible ,oh its here with me i feel it ,but for what
ever reason its dark shadow doesnt fall on me just now ,,
ok my dear freinds im going to watch a little tv and then,going to sleep
i will look forward to tommorrow ,can you believe these words ,and the cconfidence i show ,,,,bless you all my dear freinds ,please carry on with
this journey ,we all need to hear and see each other ,knowing your ok makes me feel better ,we cant go wrong if we stay on this road together
safety in numbers ,,,stay safe my dear freinds ,,,,love ken xxxxxx

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hi you guys feeling ok just now ,i hope so ,you deserve a little rest ,im just having awalk round the forum while its quiet ,the rooms are empty
but i can see your words and feel the warmth,reading stuff here froms weeks and mounths ago ,theres a lot of pain and sadness here ,but theres little pockets here and there were we have been able to giggle ,and be a little up beat ,tears well in my eyes when i go over some of the kind words witch were left for me when i was reaching out in pain ,,
i hope they had the same effect on you ,in your individuel ways ,,
so much we have to share even when we dont feel well our selves ,
ive enjoyed our talks ,its been hard seeing your pain ,but its been
inspiring to write to you all in order to give you some support
anywhoooo i shut up again now just for a little while though,lol
catch you later my dear freinds ,,,hugs stay safe love ,,ken xxxxx

[Mich]

You are a kind and wonderful person. I am so happy you have experienced this happiness.

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I HOPE YOURS WILL COME SOON MICH ,having you and all my freinds inmy life ,has helped make this possible mich ,,,so i thank you and you
will have some happiness one day i will make it my task to help you find it ,,,,hugs ken xxxxxxx

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I KNOW IT CANT BE ANY OF MY DEAR FREINDS , have i upset you in some way ,i do my best here and i think im ,doing ok now ,im just feeling
at peace with life and the forum ,,why dont you talk to me ,did i trigger you in some way ,let me put it right if i did ,im always careful in what i
say ,and would be devastated to hear that i had caused you harm ,,i dont
understand the email system ,but i do have your email address ,,tell me what you want ,,no more emails please ,it could cause me a great deal of pain ! TALK TO ME I CAN ONLY USE PM HERE ,,TALK PLEASE ,,,,,XN728,KEN

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THE VISITOR IS RETURNING ,i cant lie ,it is just vaugely visible and i awoke this morning feeling a little lower than of late ,but its ok ,ive played this game long enough to know the rules ,,it let me have time over xmas to enjoy a near normal xmas ,,it cant take that away now ,,my memory stored forever ,,and it cant take my freinds away either ,,ill wait to see what happens now ,but im sure hr by hr day by day ,i will be carryed back into the world i know only to well ,,i will speak no more of this now
catch you later my dear freinds ,,,hugs ken xxx

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((( Ken )))))))))))))))

Memories and friends, a good thing to have, hold on to.

Warmie

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ahhh (((((warmie girl ))))) nice to hear from you hows it going ,good i hope ,thanks for your kind words ,,and yes ive got good memories ,and will always have good friends ,i know that ,,as i speak the visitor is in full bloom now and is clearly visible ,,it beckons me ,and you know i must take that hand and walk that walk ,,this is gonna hurt i can feel it ,,its going to make me pay dearly for christmas ,but it was worth it ,as i said before i wasnt nieve enough to think it would last ,,,so what can i say ,,,?
i still feel strong ,im not frightened ,and as well as the visitor ,i have the warrior at my side ,so as the three of us take to that road ,theres gonna be one hell of a ruckus ,,,,,,thanks again warmie ,,,,maybe see you later
take care ,,,,hugs ken xxx

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Then one step at a time, you have gone that path before, and you can again.

((((((((( Ken )))))))))))))

Warmie

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yes my dear freind (((((warmie girl ))))) i have been here many times ,
dont worry i knew i was due for a fall everything is in place now the visitor is in full veiw ,strangley though i still feel happy ,and down ,,
and the warrior is with me also ,all very confusing ,but warmie im never
afraid of bad times ,as you say ive done this many times before ,i have
lots going for me now ,this time last year i was alone in my fight with this dark entitey ,but now i have this wonderful forum behind me ,and kind word from yourself and all my other dear freinds have given me the drive i need to carry on ,,,ill be fine ,thankyou again ,(((((warmie girl))))) hugs
ken xxx later

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hello my dear freinds ,nothing happening to me so far still a little down but i could just be tired ,the visitor is here now ,but does not threaten me at this time ,im keeping feeling upbeat ,i wont give up my happiness easily ,,speak to you later please take care stay safe hugs kenxxx