Crashing Hard

Mich · Postby **Mich** » Mon Nov 30, 2009 11:14 am

Shatteredhopes - *hugs*. I am so proud of you for staying away from your addiction. You have a real inner strength. Please hang on with me. We will keep finding those little things to keep us going. You are a special person in this world and you are wanted and needed on this earth. I am always touched by your kindness and wisdom and I am so sorry you have been treated so badly by this man. Please keep writing here - keep reaching out and connecting here. There are so many of us who are worried about you and want to help you.

xn728 · Postby **xn728** » Mon Nov 30, 2009 3:07 pm

you will always be safe here shatteredhope ,if your ex found his way here
and tryed to hurt you ,he would be washed away by a million words ,and
besides all that when he saw how highly you were held aloft here ,and saw the words we send to you ,he would be speechless and his poetry
would be a useless weapon against you ,,,bless you my dear freind
i hope you have what i have one day ,somewere out in the wilderness
someone calls your name ,and when their
journey nears its end ,you will hear their voice ,and you both will have found what you were looking for ,keep looking and listening ,,,ken

shatteredhopes · Postby **shatteredhopes** » Mon Nov 30, 2009 5:11 pm

Thanks (((((ALL))))) I had a another rough night and rough morning, but took an ativan and slept. Then my mom needed help with her grocery shopping, and she bought me a sandwich, a few things at the grocery store, and gave me money for gas. She does these sweet things for me, she doesn't understand depression at all and I can't really talk to her, but she does these sweet things, and I know how much it would hurt her if I killed myself.

I just walk around with this ache in my heart and all these little reminders constantly of that which I have lost, and sometimes it overflows and becomes unbearable.

You all are literally keeping me afloat right now. If I didn't have this outlet, I don't know if I could cope. The pain is just too much, but writing about it helps a bit. Thanks ((ALL)) for your supportive comments and caring. I don't know what I would do without you.

xn728 · Postby **xn728** » Tue Dec 01, 2009 12:16 pm

you to as well as mich are silent ,just to let you know ,i walk with you just now ,hope you see some light soon ,,,ken

Mich · Postby **Mich** » Tue Dec 01, 2009 1:09 pm

I feel the same way about this outlet. I think it is more important for me than my therapy.
Your mother sounds like a lovely person doing all those thoughtful things for you. You are right - she would be devastated if you ended your life. If those feelings get too overwhelming, you must do everything in your power to save yourself. Go to the hospital right away.
I know what it feels like to be in so much pain. I am right here with you.

crybaby1086 · Postby **crybaby1086** » Tue Dec 01, 2009 9:05 pm

((((S.hopes)))) Keep letting it all out. This is the place for it rember. Keep it locked up and jailed in here not in your mind. If you think something will trigger someone else just write it in the title so the more sensitive people can avoid it. I myself will read it. I'm not afraid of anyone elses pain. I can fight tooth and nail for my friends. It is my own pain that I fear.

dandelion · Postby **dandelion** » Wed Dec 02, 2009 3:42 am

Virginia Satir:
Feelings of worth can flourish only in an atmosphere where individual differences are appreciated, mistakes are tolerated, communication is open, and rules are flexible -- the kind of atmosphere that is found in a nurturing family.

Know that we are all family and family support each other, we support each other, i know that i am fairly new to this forum, but i wanted to be part of this family. Please know that you are loved here by all of us

A warm hug for you friend

(((((((((((((((((((( shatteredhopes )))))))))))))))))))))))))

love dandelion

lisalou · Postby **lisalou** » Wed Dec 02, 2009 4:18 am

Shatteredhopes...i hope you are feeling a little better today. i'm glad for you that you have such a good relationship with your mum

shatteredhopes · Postby **shatteredhopes** » Wed Dec 02, 2009 5:48 pm

I woke up strong, but deteriorated during the day...right now I am not good, but not especially bad...okay. I am okay. Sometimes the pain just gets overwhelming and I just want to die so badly...sometimes there's just a vague hint of it in the background. I am trying not to think about things too much and just go about my day getting by moment to moment. Thankful for hot bubble baths, naps and sleep to escape, and a full belly. Eating helps, it comforts me...I had better watch out or I will gain weight. I haven't been up to exercising but did put some music on while cooking today and bopped around a little trying to get myself active. I used to enjoy music, now so much reminds me of things I cannot allow myself to think about...used to dance for exercise, but just don't have the spirit for it anymore.

Thanks ((ALL)) for the loving support keeping me afloat and for letting me vent. Wishing you all light and peace in your day and sweet dreams...

blueisgreen · Postby **blueisgreen** » Wed Dec 02, 2009 8:49 pm

I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
((((((((((shatteredhopes))))))))))))))))))

Mich · Postby **Mich** » Thu Dec 03, 2009 6:53 am

I wish you light and peace in your day today. *hugs*

Monty · Postby **Monty** » Sat Dec 05, 2009 8:53 pm

Don't have too much to say today.

Just that I am thinking of you and hope that all is well.

Mich · Postby **Mich** » Sun Dec 06, 2009 2:23 pm

You're quiet and I am worried about you. I hope everything is okay.

dandelion · Postby **dandelion** » Sun Dec 06, 2009 3:29 pm

((((((((((((((((( shatteredhopes )))))))))))))))))))))

Just because and because you are a friend

love
dandelion

Mich · Postby **Mich** » Wed Dec 09, 2009 3:53 pm

Shatteredhopes - You have been so quiet. I hope you will reach out if you are suffering.

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