Unsure about online chat.

[Hanging On]

I am new to the online chat scene but I am not new to Depression and Anxiety. I am hoping to find a site that will be supportive and allow me to express myself without fear of ridicule or bias.A place I can go to confide with people that are going through the same trials that I am, and know what I mean when I say things like "Its me against the world". I have suffered with my mental disease since 1999. I have been in a Mental Hospital on three occasions, under suicide watch twice. My main problem is that I cannot talk with anyone in my immediate family, friends, or Loved ones about what I go through on a daily basis. I have a therapist that I think is great, I do relaxation therapy usually twice daily and these help, but I still don't get the kind of support I need. I feel like I am battling this disease alone most of the time. My Wife does not understand it, my daughter does not understand it I have no friends I would even consider trying to talk to about this so I have been advised to try an online support group. I hope that this site will be a release for me that I have not had. I encourage any feedback in regard to this post. Any type of conversing would be a welcome thing for me. Thanks in advance for your support and understanding.
I'll be, Hanging On.

[aloneinside]

It would be good to have some sort of social group for people with depression just like they do for alcoholics lol
but i dont know what the conversation would be like..
I also dont have people that understand so i know what its like - my dad pretty much just laughs at me telling me to get over it but im pretty sure if i havnt yet then i probably wont
Everyone elses life seems to be so easy - happy everyday
Im sick of being judged
anyway if you want to talk im here
I probably wont have any usefull advice that will actually change anything because peoples words are just that - words.
But i can read meaning im a good listener
Pleased to meet you

[xn728]

chat rooms are ok but they tend to be were youger people looking for support go ,often freinsdships are cast there ,almost as if face to face ,personaly i cant type fast enoughto keep up so i may be biased
aloneinside about the words are only words comment this i disagree with the words i give here are given through the power of pain ,of my own and of others i see suffer here ,words mean a lot here and altough given freely ,they can be of great benifit to others ,if words become nothing here ,then my time here is over ,please enjoy the words we may send to you ,as they can be written at great cost ,welcome again my freind ,,,listen to my words they come from my heart and they are true ,,,,,,ken

[shatteredhopes]

Welcome! I have found much understanding and support here with the struggles of living with depression. I know what its like not to be able to talk to people in your life, either they don't understand or worry too much. Anonymity here gives me great comfort and freedom to talk about how I am feeling, what I'm thinking...

I hope you post again soon. People here listen and offer support, I've found.

[lisalou]

welcome to the site both of you, hope you find it helpful. i go to a mental health support group,it's just on a drop-in basis, it is good to meet people in a similar situation and nice to have 'face to face' friends as well as all the lovely people here, try looking on the internet to see if there's anything similar in your area

[Hanging On]

Thanks so much to the ones that have responded to my first post. I am hoping that I have found a place that will help me with my everyday struggles, and never ending recovery. Thanks Lisalou about the idea of a mental health group for face to face support. The only face to face I have had in the past has been while I was In the Mental Hospitals with the support groups there. I felt safe in that type of atmosphere due to the fact that I knew we were all in the same situation. Thanks to all of you for your kind words and concern. I felt while reading your replies an overwhelming sense of relief to know that I'm being listened to by individuals that have climbed the same mountains and felt the same despair that I have. It really make a difference. I look forward to conversing with all of you and the help and support we can offer each other.

[xn728]

we all suffer in differant ways ,and always support each other ,we all understand pain and ,misunderstanding by others ,everyone is great here and we look forward to hearing more from you like your self my wife and girls dont really understand my illness but this is down to me not wanting to worry them ,i prretty much carry the pain alone ,and have had to put up with bulling all my childhood and working life ,no one has ever understood,but here you will be safe ,and dont worry about how you feel ,i see things all the time and my depression is ever present day or night and is visible to me as a dark cloaked shadowy featureless figure ,ever silent but ever present ,,,,,,,xn728