My firstest post

[Whisper]

Hi,

I'm Jeanne, I'm 42 (I think), I keep forgetting that I've just turned and am not a wippersnapper of 41 anymore. I have yearly bouts of major depression around early fall usually, that were diagnosed as SAD before, but this year it hit me again in the spring. It was hard enough getting thrown into the dungeon once a year (anyone who's had md knows what I mean right) and now its happened twice. I've been assuming/hoping/praying that I won't get the fall one as well, but I dunno. When I was seeming to get better, I think I'm getting worse again. I don't know how I'm going to keep going. Life just feels like a life sentence and it seems to be getting worse.

Its taken me forever just to get up the gumption to register at one of these sites. I wish people could just post anonymously, it would be so much easier since I'm depressed and unmotivated already. Oh well, here I am. Not a very upbeat first post, I wish I could bounce in here and show some of my normal self, but it is what it is.

[Mich]

Hi - I am Mich (46) also in the grips of major depression. I am glad you got the courage up to join the board. I just joined yesterday. It is so hard to know how to keep going when the beast strikes. What has worked for you in the past? I wish I had a magic answer for you. I try like heck to distract myself and I get extra cuddly with my dog. It certainly doesn't eliminate the pain but it sometimes stops me from thinking about it so much. Also, and this is a hard one, if you try to focus on others, it can sometimes take the edge off. I certainly hope you are not headed for another horrible bout. I am in the midst of one and am desperate for relief. Please keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. PS - I notice we are both from Canada!