touch the screen,can you feel my pain
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touch the screen,can you feel my pain
my friends im
Last edited by xn728 on Sat Sep 12, 2009 2:35 pm, edited 1 time in total.
still here and kicking
not much change
Last edited by xn728 on Sat Sep 12, 2009 2:36 pm, edited 1 time in total.
Ken,
I feel your suffering . I read a lot of your posts. They reflect on a man gifted in prose.
One thing I noted was you mentioned you have a loving wife.
That made me feel jealous of you. In a wierd way I felt you were in a better position to handle your pain. To have somebody to share your pain.
I just came back from the grocery shop. Saw a lot of beautiful women. None of them as much glanced at me. the rare ones that did, looked at me with disgust, for I have a mean and ugly demeanour . I have tried hard to change it. But I cant.
I know I will end up alone and die alone.
Ken, I didnt mean to post a sad story instead of helping you - but you have something that is a source of strength. Hope she helps you in your fight against the demons.
bye
Jer
I feel your suffering . I read a lot of your posts. They reflect on a man gifted in prose.
One thing I noted was you mentioned you have a loving wife.
That made me feel jealous of you. In a wierd way I felt you were in a better position to handle your pain. To have somebody to share your pain.
I just came back from the grocery shop. Saw a lot of beautiful women. None of them as much glanced at me. the rare ones that did, looked at me with disgust, for I have a mean and ugly demeanour . I have tried hard to change it. But I cant.
I know I will end up alone and die alone.
Ken, I didnt mean to post a sad story instead of helping you - but you have something that is a source of strength. Hope she helps you in your fight against the demons.
bye
Jer
DONT WISH FOR DEATH
thanks for
Last edited by xn728 on Sat Sep 12, 2009 2:36 pm, edited 1 time in total.
Ken,
Most of the time when I read the stories of the people that are part of this forum, I am so impressed with how strong they are.
Your last posting gave me the same feeling. You are not going to let this depression beat you. You'll fight to the end.
Just a quick note to you jer. I was alone for a lot of years too. I could see no reason why anyone would want to spend time with me, unless they absolutely had to. Like Ken, I too was fortunate to find someone who supports me, even through the tough times. When it comes to looks, I have often been compared to a dog (or worse).
In your previous posts you have sounded like a kind and thoughtful person that has most likely been hurt by the opposite sex for a lot of years. I just hope that you don't give up.
If you can sit down at the computer, and just write maybe it will help let out some of the feelings of frustration you feel. Can't do any harm because we are a very supporting, caring group of people in this forum. We certainly don't judge.
Most of the time when I read the stories of the people that are part of this forum, I am so impressed with how strong they are.
Your last posting gave me the same feeling. You are not going to let this depression beat you. You'll fight to the end.
Just a quick note to you jer. I was alone for a lot of years too. I could see no reason why anyone would want to spend time with me, unless they absolutely had to. Like Ken, I too was fortunate to find someone who supports me, even through the tough times. When it comes to looks, I have often been compared to a dog (or worse).
In your previous posts you have sounded like a kind and thoughtful person that has most likely been hurt by the opposite sex for a lot of years. I just hope that you don't give up.
If you can sit down at the computer, and just write maybe it will help let out some of the feelings of frustration you feel. Can't do any harm because we are a very supporting, caring group of people in this forum. We certainly don't judge.
I always thought I would die alone too... I spent many years with a terrible and selfish BOY who refused to grow up and take care of himself... he preferred that I take care of him. I wasted over six years with this person, all. I struggled to change him - which I now know would never happen. I was so depressed that I ate too much all the time, and then he convinced me that I was too unappealing for anyone else to ever want me. Then? HE left ME.
I have to tell you that two years and many pounds later, I am a different person. I opened myself up to falling in love and did... HARD. I am now engaged to a beautiful and wonderful man who I love with all of my heart... and I'm receiving the love back.
I tell you this so that you can see that there is a future out there... even when it does not feel that way. I cried myself to sleep many nights; both before and after this ex-boyfriend left me. I asked why everyone around me was getting married and having children. Then while I was alone, I asked myself if anyone would ever love me... It took me 33 years, but I've finally found it.
Don't give up... there is always something more out there.
I have to tell you that two years and many pounds later, I am a different person. I opened myself up to falling in love and did... HARD. I am now engaged to a beautiful and wonderful man who I love with all of my heart... and I'm receiving the love back.
I tell you this so that you can see that there is a future out there... even when it does not feel that way. I cried myself to sleep many nights; both before and after this ex-boyfriend left me. I asked why everyone around me was getting married and having children. Then while I was alone, I asked myself if anyone would ever love me... It took me 33 years, but I've finally found it.
Don't give up... there is always something more out there.
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