Feeling down...

[helium]

I'm not doing so well.
Yesterday at night I couldn't stop myself from crying. I went to the bathroom so no one would see me. I don't usually cry- even when I'm feeling extremely bad, but yesterday I couldn't help it. Today I had a similar episode.

I seem to be doing alright. I am not sleeping as I would like, plus, I went to a classical music concert and everything.


I feel so weak and unable to cope with this.


Thanks for listening.

Hortensia

[Monty]

Hortensia,

I don't know about you, but if I am not getting enough sleep, it seems like my entire universe goes out of sync.

This is coming from someone who is very well-versed in the consequences of not sleeping. I have mentioned in the forums several times, that I suffer from chronic insomnia. Can relate to how you can just feel so depleted of energy. Maybe the sleep disturbance is playing a part of you "not being on your game".

I understand that, for most people it seems like they don't want to cry. A few years ago, I was so happy when I went to a movie, actually I think it was Birdcage with Robin Williams. Whatever the movie it made me laugh so hard that I cried. I had been many years since I had been well enough, that I was able to let that emotion out.

I am afraid now that I cry at pretty well anything. Even commercials on tv. The movies that make me cry, no question, I often keep on hand. Not that I watch them terribly often but have them on hand just so I can let the sadness, or sometimes it is extreme happiness out.

If you went to a classical music concert I am sure that might have made me cry. Music is just so beautiful.

I am sorry that crying isn't a positive thing for you, and that you feel bad about it when it happens.

Remember that you are not weak, you are coping with things. I think that it is good for you to keep posting since, no one here is going to judge you and at least you have a outlet for those deep feelings that it seems hard to let out.