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[Beth F]

I think your question is one that only you can answer, as far as why you to live. I'm sorry you're in such pain, and know from your past posts that you're very angry. Not judging, just an observation. I can understand the anger, pain and hopelessness. At times I too have wondered why I should go on, as I'm sure many others have here. But owning a weapon isn't an answer, and if you're in that state of mind I seriously hope you reach out to a professional for help.

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[Beth F]

Yeah, meds can be tricky. Good luck with finding something that helps you cope a little better.

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[Beth F]

This is when you need to call your therapist.

[lost-soul]

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[Beth F]

Look, I think you need help that a mental health forum can't offer you, and that's not meant in a mean-spirited way. Sometimes we need to vent, I get it. But even though I do feel for you, you seem completely closed off to any type of discussion about your issues. Or any options besides lashing out (at yourself and others) and blaming. I noticed that beenthere1001 gave a very well thought reply to one of your posts. You should read that.

[lost-soul]

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[Beth F]

Look, I think you need help that a mental health forum can't offer you, and that's not meant in a mean-spirited way. Sometimes we need to vent, I get it. But even though I do feel for you, you seem completely closed off to any type of discussion about your issues. Or any options besides lashing out (at yourself and others) and blaming. I noticed that beenthere1001 gave a very well thought reply to one of your posts. You should read that.

I did and the reply is a f****** joke. She doesnt know any thing about my f****** life and completely takes what i said completely out of context

Well, we can only go by what people share here. And as I said, you seem completely closed off to having a discussion that goes beyond anger and blame. It becomes toxic after a while and I can only imagine the inner h*ll you're experiencing. But I don't want to take part in that. So...good luck with everything.