Down and out

[Cloud83]

I have been seriously down and out, I work hard as a RN all week long, but have had a lot of trouble finding love. I am 32, attractive and have been one eating sites and tried many other avenues. Recently went on date and thought it was amazing and now the guy seems to have a change of mind. I can't help but to blame myself when I see all mo coworkers married at my age. I had a rough childhood and see a therapist, I have a lot of issues with anxiety and depression. I am down in the dumps more than happy. I feel very alone in life as all my friends are in relationships and I am not super close with family. I just worry I will be alone forever as my looks start to fade. I just feel like nobody cares in this world. Everyone has their own things to worry about.

[Broken Skye]

Hi,
I just found this site last night. I can identify with some of the things you are going through. I also had a rough childhood, and see a therapist. You are a RN so professionally you have things straightened out. I never finished school so I am still have a rough life financially. I never wanted to end up old and alone so I got into relationships and ignored the signs that they were bad. Now I'm going to end up that way anyways because I never took the time to learn to love myself. I guess I'm just saying I'm where you are worried you'll be. I'm the last person who should be giving advice, but if I could go back I'd tell my younger self not to worry about being alone. I would have used that time enjoy my own hobbies and interests, and try new things. It sucks seeing everyone else around you happy. I am finally taking the time to work on being ok with being alone. Maybe one day I'll find someone, but I know that I have to build myself up to be the kind of person who will attract the right kind of guy. If your date seemed great, but didn't work out just be glad you both didn't waste any more time on each other. That doesn't mean that there isn't someone out for you, maybe it just wasn't that particular guy. I hope this helps.