New member...here.

[drm.big]

Hellooo. I'm 47. Like many here, I've been clinically
diagnosed with depression recently,
but have experienced all aspects of the illness
most of my life. I don't take the drugs anymore,
but that doesn't mean I don't get to experience
the same darkness. Call it what you like,
there are days which are best quantified, as struggle.

This is the first Depression related forum I've joined.
To be upfront, I'm working on a startup aimed at
helping depression through primarily NON drug related therapy.
I'm not a doctor.
I'm someone who has been depressed or in
an altered mental state my entire life, and a
musician/artist/creative. I'm not selling anything.
I honestly don't have anything to sell even if you were buying. HAha.
I'am however interested in making the most
USEABLE, complete program to genuinely HELP
people not ever be as down as I, and many others here,
are and have been. Simple.

I'm looking for willing participants to build this program.
Non paying early adopters in a grand experiment to
help themselves and the world Dream BIG amazing dreams,
to find their greater peace, thus spreading LOVE in the world.

Namaste.

[IrishBlue]

I am at the point where I am ready to try anything,
Anything, other than drugs, that gets me back to where
I used to be, I am sick of the thoughts in my head,
I cant shake them,

I cannot cope with these feelings of despair any more,
and I do not want to spend my life on anti depressants

[drm.big]

Hello Irishblue. I'm so sorry you are at this point. I have been where you are. No doubt. I have. And the job I'm in...well let's say sometimes its not possible to go anywhere private, so there I would be, just wanting to die, etc.
-Are you a creative? Do you now write or have you in the past? Draw? Sing? If you were you as you remember you, what is your deepest passion?

[IrishBlue]

I used to research and write history, I had a passion for it now, I cannot get motivated to do any thing. The pain is just too much

[drm.big]

I'm so sorry. My foundation is primarily a non-drug based solution. I've been on the drugs, don't want to be anymore.

[IrishBlue]

What are the alternatives ? I do no want to be on drugs to alter my mood.

I am scared of loosing me, I just dont like the current version, I feel so useless and hopeless.

[drm.big]

TDBF is all about wholistic creative therapy and treatment.
TOTAL. Diet, exercise, lifestyle, tendencies, hobbies, etc. Our program is not for everyone. TDBF clients must agree to stay on course. As a first step, I'd tell you to start journaling. On paper, online, wherever. Commit to it everyday, keep track of what your thoughts are, where they take you, how you felt, etc, etc. Knowledge is power.

It's a program, it's not for everyone, but if you are ready to get off the drugs, it could be for you.