In The Abyss

[porcupine]

How can anyone be so alone? I feel like I've got an aching void of isolation deep in my soul. Often other people make me feel lonelier. What kind of Hell is this? I can't make it stop. I've felt fear all night.

I can't get attached to anyone or anything, in case I'm deserted. I need to be alone but at the same time I can't stand it. I just want to be saved, but nobody can or will.

[mad dog]

Porcupine, you don't need to go through this on your own. Google the number for your areas Crisis team. Stay strong.

[porcupine]

Mad dog, thank you for your reply. How are you?

[mad dog]

I have good days & not so good days. Fatigue is a big issue for me. I'm trying to get back to work but only managing 1 day a week at the moment. Luckily I have an amazing supportive boss who is happy to let me work what I'm able to.

How are you porcupine?
Which country are you in?
I hope you've got some support.

Love & hugs

[porcupine]

I feel like I'm in the abyss, mainly in the night. I should try to distract myself, instead of lying there suffering. I'm in the UK. Where are you from?

[mad dog]

I'm in NZ. Originally from Scotland, left there in 1983.

The nights can be bad. I have a hypnotherapy app that I listen to in bed. Concentrating on what's being said & doing the breathing clears my head. The app is by a guy called Glen Harrold. He does a free one but the one I bought is much better & didn't cost much.

Stay strong.

Love & hugs
xxx