I know what helps me..proven scientifically!

[heather.haywire]

Well I take painkillers...and about one and two years back stimulant drugs like ecstasy helped....at least we'd die happy right? But seriously 2 years ago bath salts (well some brands at least) were remarkable. Basically ecstasy, except u werent totes outta ur mind so u could still think for yourself lol and u still had your wits.. Sorry peeps drunk and depressed. Can't sleep at least my dissociation isn't as bad as It used to be.

[JonsDragonEyes]

Hi Heather. I don't think that anyone can truly die happy. We're meant to live as long as we possibly can hang on. Dying is a horrible doorway we have to someday walk through forever and as long as your heart beats we got to keep fighting making that walk to that long doorway.

If you feel comfortable talking about it could you talk to us and tell us here how everything for you started ? The pain killers ? The ecstacy ?? The drinking ??

We care about you here. I care about you. Talk to us. Maybe we can help you.

love and hugs always