17, confused and desperate to share my thoughts.

[Twigs]

Hello

High-school student with 17 years of life under my belt.

First of all i should probably state that my situation might not be that critical compared to the other brave souls on this site. I'm not suicidal and i haven't hurt myself. I'm just going through a pretty confusing and tough time in my life, with conflicting thoughts about humanity and a brain that simply cannot stop thinking negatively.

At school i have people that i talk to, but i dont have any close friends. outside of school i have a few good buddies i play videogames with over skype, but we rarely meet, only around five or six times a year. So i don't really have best friends that i meet with on a regular basis.

For one and a half year, i've spent almost all of my free time in front of a pc-screen, passing the time with youtube videos and podcasts instead of going out.

As a result of this i am very anxious and doubtful of myself in social situations. I dont think before i speak, and that has a tendency to make one seem pretty dumb (i can't count how many times i have filled my sentences with "uum's and err's" believe me. Anyway i need to talk to people other than my parents about and i was thinking that could be some of you out there!

i hope that some can find this relatable. I would love to share more of my thoughts on other people, stereotypes, intentionally liking something because others do, stuff like that.