My Dilema

[tito]

I am 42 and have been depressed for over 30 years!

I would.t understand what it was initially. Thinking back, I remember I never had enough sleep back in those days when I was in primary school. I would go into a deep slumber each day after returning from school, waking up feeling un-rested and unhappy.

It was always difficult getting up in the morning either but all these were explained-off as sign of laziness. The symptom never stopped and I just accept them as normal.

I later went on to do very well (academically) in highschool, "A" levels and got my first degree. Been working professionally since 1998 but I never could go for a day at work without the need to sleep. so much so that I had to look for a nice spot in a nearby park to nab for an hour during lunch rather than lunching.

If I have felt like this for this long is it unreasonable to think this is how I will feel for my entire life on earth? I have 3 lovely kids and a wife that should be giving me non-stop happiness but I just cant seem to be happy!!

I am currently on a daily dose of Pristiq (50mg) + Sodium valproate (200mg) and although I feel fed-up about life, I don't feel actively suicidal.

I just stumbled across this forum and I thought I should say something about myself and see maybe someone in similar dilemma can share their coping experience with me?

[msross67]

Good Morning Tito!

Just wanted to welcome you to the site. I'm new as well. I do not have much knowledge about Depression Meds, but since this started so long ago, it does sound like this is all "Chemical Imbalance" based. You're very lucky to have your Wife and Kids!