I'm not sure if I am depressed or not...

[camami]

Hi! I'm Lottie and I'm 14 years old!! I'm new to this website and I'm posting because I'm not sure if I am depressed or not and was wondering if someone could give me any advice or insight. Basically, I've been feeling very upset for maybe the last two years. I've been crying a lot, distancing myself and feeling very hopeless and it only seems to be getting worse. Theres a lot of things that might be causing it I guess. For example my parents have recently started fighting a lot, my mum is not very supportive of me and always criticizing, I started senior school where I didn't know anybody and have had a bit of trouble with making friends (and even if I did it would be awkward because I hardly even invite friends over because my house is very messy), I feel like such a failure in my life and that I'm wasting it away and I'm not really sure who I can talk to because I'm really shy and it's really hard for me to open up to people. I guess thats also another reason too, I'm very shy and sometimes I feel like people get sorta bored of me.... But anyways, I just recently tried emailing some counselor people and even tried calling a hotline but it seems like they didn't even care after I said that I wasn't extremely suicidal. So I was looking at some of the posts and the responses and actually got a lot out of them so I was wondering if anybody could give me some advice on my situation.

I know that so many other people have it a lot worse than I do and that my problems might seem really petty but if you know anything that would help or if you think that I might be depressed please let me know,

Thank you so much!!!
xx

[writeagain]

I would consult a family doctor or your normal physician first. If you aren't comfortable with your parents knowing you could talk to a school councilor or go to the doctors office when you are alone. Tell them about your symptoms and they will be able to defer you to a psychiatrist if you do have depression. I don't want to tell you one way or another because though I am living depression I don't know if you specifically have it. Don't let the diagnosis define you either way. Stay strong and good luck!