Hi everyone, I'm brand new to this page. I thought I would give it a try
Depression seems to have been with me for a long time, and it has gotten worse this year. I am a full time nursing student and I work weekends. I rarely have time for friends and fun anymore. I have a lot of negative self talk: it bothers me if I can't do something right the first time or if I don't do well on my school work. (I can be a bit of a perfectionist). I feel tired: I just want to stop sometimes. There are days when I just spend hours on my bed just sitting there doing nothing. I am grateful to have a close relationship with my family, but I don't think they know what I'm going through. I also have a hard time telling them my problems because I don't want them to worry about me (they seem to have enough to worry about as it is). I have very high hopes and dreams for the future: I want to become a great nurse, meet new people, travel the world, and settle down with a nice family. I just have a hard time seeing past what is happening right now. My thoughts are getting darker and with another harsh winter ahead, I thought I would try this forum. I already feel a little better writing about my feelings
I simply want to feel normal again. I want to be happier in life so I can find my purpose and help other people. Thanks for reading, it's nice to know I'm not alone