FAKE SMILE

[kristina_1994]

Hello
Honestly i dont know where to start .. well i am 19 and wisch i could close my eyes and never open again . i know that this sound crasy but that is the truth.. I am tired of everythig i just want to run somewhere and never cme back to this life , the only thing that keeps me together and stoping me from running is my family and my conscience because i love them so much so i cant do what i want (because i know that it would rip them apart and i dont want for them to be sad not because of me )


and above all i am finisching high school ths year and pressure is coming from all sides , everyone wants to know what are my plans next , do i planing to go on a college or not and dont know what to tell everyone because honestly i dont know what i want ...
somewhere
and i wisch i dont need to fake a smile

btw soory for my bad English im from croatia and ..........

[PixieArmy]

Welcome Kristina,

I am sorry you are feelings so down. Have you tried talking to your family. It seems you have good support with them. Maybe they can help you explore options, meds or therapy.

Hope you find a safe space here where you can vent and find support.