Vent... (Triggering)

[CrazyLady17]

Sorry but I need to express some feelings; hope you don't mind?
I really need to vent somewhere...

I am a worthless piece of rubbish.
I always mess things up.
I am a selfish piece of rubbish.
I always hurt people who I love and care about dearly.
I always end up pushing everyone away.
I always end up screwing everything up and loosing people.
I always end up saying the wrong things to people...

I am just a stupid, stupid, pathetic little girl.
Aren't i?

Sorry for venting out...
I feel a whole lot better after that....
I feel a lot more fresh and a lot more calmer and happier now I've got all that off my chest. Feels good.

Sorry again guys.

[CrazyLady17]

Sorry about this; but need to vent out again(as I can't physically scream here)....

ARGHHHHHHHH!!
I am so pissed off!! Pissed off with the staff here, pissed off with my parents. Mostly pissed off with myself.

Rant over.

[CrazyLady17]

Pissed off with myself still; but happy at the same time? What the heck?!!! I am angry with myself but don't know why?
I am happy and hyper at the same time too?
Huh? Doesn't make any sense to me...

I just need a good vent to someone!!!
A nurse maybe? My support worker?
The counsellor? But they might think I'm crazy?

[CrazyLady17]

I seriously need to get myself a stress ball or punch a pillow or something, am on the edge of lossing it and screaming my head off. Aha, now that would be funny to see hmm.

I just seem to be so angry with myself, so angry for upsetting so many people and making then hate me?
I guess I deserve it, but why am I angry?

Oh Abbie!
Grow some balls and shut up.
Grow some balls and be positive and STOP being so damn annoying.

Needed that rant with myself.

Sorry guys, I had to let it all out.

[CrazyLady17]

Suicidal? Why? I don't know... Get a shocking grip and grow some balls and stop being so damn selfish!!!
Come on Abbie- you are better than this.... You CAN beat this and you CAN fight this and recover!!!

I feel so angry with myself... I want to scream. I need to punch something, but what?
A pillow?
A punch bag?
Ahhhhh!!! Pillow it is.

[CrazyLady17]

Punched a pillow for the first time and it felt so good!!! I think it's a good way to express all the anger and tension built up inside me. I feel a lot better now after that, however... I still feel quite pissed off with myself?
I just feel like self-harming because I'm angry with myself?

Seriously need to get a grip.
These mood swings are annoying.

[4EverMe]

Hi Abbz,
Uhh. Hmm....Have you seen the green lizard on the commercials?
I can't mention the actual name, except if u still need 2 thrash on something- LOL!
Sorry if ur confused. Heehee eee

[CrazyLady17]

Huh?
I'm a little confused LOL...
What green lizard?
I will just scream and punch the pillow- it works aha...

Sorry for all the vents.. Am pretty pissed off.

[CrazyLady17]

Pissed off with the duty nurse.... Pissed off with the staff here, treating me like I'm a little girl... I'm a young adult!
Pissed off with parents and pissed off with myself again huh? :/

Screamed into my pillow again!!! Ahh!!!

[CrazyLady17]

Can I ask; how can I prove that?
I'm 17, nearly 18...
I'm not a child anymore?

[CrazyLady17]

Pissed off isn't the word right now!!!
Stupid crisis team pissing me off today argh!!! Just need to scream so loud right now and punch a pillow!!! Never been so pissed off. Wish the crisis team would just leave me alone and give me some space to breathe.
Gosh!!

Sorry about this little rant.
Rant over.

[LetHerGo]

Join the club

[CrazyLady17]

Huh?
You are in hospital on a section?(so mental health unit)?!!
Because that is where I am.

Am so pissed off with being here now!!! But know is for the best...

[CrazyLady17]

Need to scream ahhhhhhh!!!!!
Pissed off with myself again!!! Pissed off with everything.

[CrazyLady17]

Found a healthy way to let out ally anger....

1- either to write down all my feelings
2- punch a pillow.
3- scream into a pillow.

These things work for me..
But still feel like a screaming at the staff as they are annoying me!!!

I want to argue with myself as I am annoying myself? How is that possible? I must be going crazy. Hmm.