Mixed feelings and thoughts

[Ieris]

Stop playing the victim.

No one is being mean to you, you just choose to read what you want to read.
After all the time and effort that people have spent replying to your threads, don't just pick out the one line which you can use to play the victim card because that is not happening.

[CrazyLady17]

Am not?
I was just making a statement that's all? :/

Sorry gosh.

I am grateful for all the replies, help and support from people
Makes me feel a little less alone, and it helps a little.

[Ieris]

Lady, that's OK but just don't say people are being mean and harsh when they have kindly taken the time to comment when they all have problems of their own. If you react that way, people will react back and it will cause unnecessary conflict and ruin what we have here. Do you know what I mean?

We are all just trying to help each other here, some people are more soft, some more straight forward but nonetheless everyone is just trying to help

[CrazyLady17]

Thank you.
Yes I know what you mean, and I respect that and I totally understand that of course.
But if people tell me "I'm not making the effort and not doing my best" I will react the way I did. Do you know what I mean?
But yes I know what your saying here, and again I'm sorry...

I am so insecure though and I've been hurt so many times in my life, I just feel like everyone that walks in my life will hurt me. Get what I mean?

[Ieris]

Good Good

I have read many threads by Frame and Fallen, they are both neutral and fair to everyone. I know other people in your life has hurt you but try to remember people here are not trying to.

If you want to talk, we will listen but I must say you do post all over the place that it is a little hard to keep track of I like your "My Journal" thread, maybe keep them all in there or another one that you like so it can make my life easier knowing which one was posted when

[CrazyLady17]

Thank you again

Yes I know... But I just get so so insecure, I can't help it though? I've felt this way for a very long time now and when people walk in my life, I just feel like they'll hurt me... But yes I will remember that you all aren't going to hurt me and walk out my life

Aww thank you, I like that thread of mine too
I know I do... But that thread is for how my day has been etc... But will try your suggestions.

[Ieris]

Cool

I hope you learn to trust again, not just people in here but people outside of this forum too. You're still young, you'll meet plenty of new people out there, and eventually you will learn to weed out the good ones from the bad.

Cool try that out, just like a dear diary sort of thing, when we want to know what happens next we turn the page, just makes things easier to read I guess when they are all kept together.

I hope you have a nice day x

[CrazyLady17]

Thank you

Yes I will learn to trust again... But I guess it'll take time eh? But am sick and tired of but trusting anyone as this is when all the conflict comes in and when I get so insecure it isn't fair that I feel this way.
But in time I will learn to trust people again and I will learn that not all people are bad and horrible. Thank you

Okay thank you for that.. Will try it out yes.
Already have like what? 6 pages on that thread... But will still use the other threads too, but not as often I guess.

My day has been up and down really...
Been crying and feeling suicidal, but am feeling better now thank you x

[CrazyLady17]

Got so many mixed and confusing feelings and thoughts about counselling.....
Any tips on how I can face it?
And any advise on how I can stay calm and not panic?

Thank you in advance

[CrazyLady17]

I feel rather mixed up today?
I woke up feeling quite happy today(not normal for me)
But on the other-hand I still feel quite depressed an low? Why is this? Does anyone know?
Also is it normal to feel guilty for waking up smiling?