getting your partner to understand.

[PDFS]

having a bad evening today i am really anxious and can't settle but i was thinking it will be fine when when my girlfriend gets home as she'll comfort me, but no all i get is told to go and sit down and stop being anxious because i am making her uncomfortable. i get the feeling i am not with the right person some times.

[CrazyLady17]

I am sure you are. But remember it will take her time to get used to the fact you have depression. People do understand better as time goes on.

(((Hugs)))

[PDFS]

well the last two days i have been feeling a bit more level i am not anxious but i am far from good, at least the school i work in breaks up tomorrow so i have a few weeks off.
Unfortunately since my attack the other night i feel something has changed between me and my girlfriend as i don't feel like i can rely on her to support me and as things haven't been great since i have been getting low again i am unsure what to do, depression has been part of my life for a long time and i have always been honest to her about this but it seams she can't cope with me when i am low so why should she get to have me when i am not.
i have asked her to look into it to so she can understand but she shows no interest, all i get is told to cheer up or calm down and when i can't she gets frustrated. i know she doesn't trust me and reads my emails and she thinks i am still in love with my ex which doesn't help as she is by far my best support having been here herself. With all this I'm not sure its healthy for me.
i don't really know what to do I don't want to be on my own but know its not fair to be with some one just because i am scared of being lonely.

[CrazyLady17]

(((Hugs))))

[PDFS]

Just using this thread to vent and get the thoughts out of my head at the moment not sure if i want answers or if i already know them. its such a shame as before this all happened we were great together so i am blaming myself for causing the issue even though i know i cant help when i get low.

[CrazyLady17]

Oh I am sorry.
You poor thing.

(((Hugs)))

[PDFS]

no need to be sorry, its nice to know there is some one out there, before joining i was feeling i bit alone as most my friends don't understand so i would write this stuff down and throw it away its nice to know some one knows what i am writing, luckily work are great as i work in a school for kids with special educational needs and anxiety issues. oh the irony.

[CrazyLady17]

You have us to lean on!
We are all listening and we all care.

Take care.

(((Hugs)))

[4EverMe]

Hi there,
I feel for what you're going through, and I can relate, as I have Panic Disorder.
Have you seen a doctor. There may be medication that could help. I'm on meds, myself, and believe me- It really helps. I got to the point where I couldn't even leave my home. Really sucked!

Hoping things improve with your situation.

[CrazyLady17]

She does have a point here- I agree!

[PDFS]

i have been on meds before but the caused my mood to drop and nightmares i couldn't wake from so i have come off them and i am now waiting for my CBT to start.

[CrazyLady17]

(((Hugs)))

[Frame]

Hi PDFS

i have a family event to go to and my Dad says he has big news, im very anxious and shaking i am trying to go in the gym to burn it off but its not helping.

I was wondering if your comfortable sharing your Dad's news and how it affected you.

Frame

[PDFS]

there was no news it was just a way to get me and my sisters to spend time with him and his wife. he is at the route of a lot of my problems as a few years back he made me and mum believe he had/was going to kill him self after my mum left him and was later found perfectly fine eating a fry up while we panicked.

[CrazyLady17]

Oh you poor thing.

(((Hugs)))