Feeling isolated and so anxious all the time

[CrazyLady17]

So my depression makes me feel very very anxious and very very isolated.
I mean I will isolate myself from everyone, I will shut the world out and go into "my own world". I will isolate myself from the world and lie in bed with the covers over my head and curled up and cry and just sleep.
Then I feel so anxious when people come near me and ask me if I'm okay.
Also I feel so insecure and that also started when I became depressed.

Are all these feelings normal? And does anybody else experience these kind of feelings?
And does anyone know how to get over these fears of feelings?

[TheConsciousWind]

These feelings are normal for the world we live in. But you should not worry about what is normal and what isn't, or what is sane and what isn't. The word "normal" should be offensive to every human, as it is one man (or group of men) telling you how you should be. It is arrogant and oppressive. Be yourself. Say whatever you want even if it's called blasphemy. And when you isolate yourself from the world, make sure it's man's world, and not the Earth itself.

[CrazyLady17]

Thank you.
Ah what greats words of wisdom again! You're words are so inspiring, do you know that? You're wisdom does infact inspire me a great deal. So thank you for that. You bring so much wisdom to this forums.

Thank you.
I will try and think of it like that next time. But it's pretty hard when you feel like the whole world is against you and I'm falling apart and got no-one to lean on. Does that make any sense?

[TheConsciousWind]

You're very welcome.
The way you feel does make sense to me. I've felt the same way, many times. So I chose to become an island, and put an ocean between myself and the world of man.
You may fall; you may fall apart; but keep in mind these are perspectives. The next time you feel like you're in pieces, remind yourself that you still have all your limbs and you can still breathe the air.

[CrazyLady17]

Ah good, that's alright then.
Aww thank you again.

Okay I will make sure I think of that next time. You've been a massive help to me. So thank you again!
Today I feel so anxious, don't know why just do! I woke up at 6am this morning having a massive panic attack, and that's the first time ever! Does anyone know why this happened to me?

[CrazyLady17]

I feel like shutting the world off again, curling up in bed and blocking out everything and everyone.
I hate feeling so isolated, but then again I sometime isolated myself for others. Why does this happen? Why does depression do this to my brain?

[CrazyLady17]

I feel like isolating myself for the complete world again. Feel like shutting everything off and sleeping right until it's 2014. Why do I feel like this? I constantly feeling so isolated and also started having major panic attacks and they are worrying and scaring me.

[CrazyLady17]

I just want to curl up, and isolate myself for the whole world now. Like I mean isolate myself for the world forever!
I have given up. Got no faith. Got no hope.

[TheConsciousWind]

Everyone needs to "give up" from time to time. To lay down and not think or worry about anything whatsoever. To feel death, figuratively, spiritually. Then you can rest, and get up and try again.

[CrazyLady17]

Okay, thank you.
But is it normal to "give up" like all the time though? Because I'm pretty sure it isn't... I mean I wake up every morning feeling the exact same feeling as the day before and feel so sad that I even woke up this morning.

I just want to give up completely now.

[TheConsciousWind]

Remember what I said before? Don't worry about what is normal and what isn't. Let yourself feel whatever you need to, until you understand why you are feeling that way. Your mind will give you answers, if you seek them. I want you to try this meditation: stop thinking. Stop your inner-dialogue. This isn't something you need to sit down and do anywhere special, it's something you can do at any time while doing anything. Push your focus outward (using a video game can be a useful thing to focus on), but even if you're doing something mundane, focus on it with your eyes and senses, not your mind. If you can quiet your mind in this way, you will gain understanding/answers. And note that even if you can only do this successfully for a single second, like a muscle, it gets easier each time.

[CrazyLady17]

Yes I will remember and okay thank you. I will always remember that now!
Still feel like completely isolating myself for the whole world and not showing my face for a whole year.
Giving up!

[CrazyLady17]

Just going to isolate myself for a year for the whole entire world!! I can't cope any longer, I need to isolate myself. But then I wil most probably end up more and more depressed!

Someone help

[Frame]

Look outward toward helping tomorrow, not inward at what seems so tragic.
And remember origami. It takes time. It needs practice.

[CrazyLady17]

Okay thank you Frame.
But like I have said before though; it's easier said than done.... Right? Of course it is. But I will try and focus on tomorrow and going back to the shelter, but it is hard when I feel so isolated and vulernable.

Ah yes. Forgot to tell you...
Guess what?
Did a Santa origami! Woo!