OMG - So down today

[karolanne]

Hi everyone,

I'm so down today. I'm incredibly down. I'm at work and I just want to cry.

My day at work started with my supervisor asking me about my schedule and that she thinks I don't to all the hours I should. But I do. I write all my schedule in my agenda and calculate everything. So, I have nothing to worry about. But I don't know, this discussion hurted me.

Then, I received an email. It seems I made a mistake. I had invoices to pay and one was "glued" (not really glue but I guess you'll understand what I mean) to another one and I didn't pay it. So, we're going to pay interest. So, my supervisor is not happy.

And then, I have something very negative in mind, something that happened in the past and that have and will always have an huge impact on my life. Hate is growing in my heart toward my mother.

I don't know if I'll get reply to my post. My last topic didn't get any. I guess people are tired to see me always down. Anyway, it's good to think that some people will at leat read me.

Take care everyone.

[Frame]

I know how hard it is Karolanne.

Sometimes it feels irritating to read all the posts here about being down. I want someone to respond to one of my philosophical posts, or I want to read something constructive, or ...I don't know. But sometimes (well.. you know... misery loves company) I like to know I'm not the only one struggling. And that what this sight is for.

Everyone is human Karolanne; you, me, your supervisor, your mother,... Everyone has made / will make mistakes. Some are more hurtful than others but it's important to keep clear in your mind that we all do our best. It's an attitude your supervisor will appreciate.

Any resolution to the apartment challenge?
Keep your chin up.
Frame

[karolanne]

hi Frame,

Nothing new for the appart. I don't heat for now, so it's pretty cold. But when I'm at home, I wear mutliple layers of pjs and other hot clothes. One of my dog stays under the sheets of the bed or comes in my clothes. lol The other has lot of fur, so, she's ok. lol

My mother hated me, she rejected me so much. Once, she did something that I guess a lot of people will think it's awful. It happened few years ago and it still hurts me and it will for the rest of my life.

Take care.