One of Sorrow's few friends

[Ghost]

I'm brazilian. I'm 25 and I'm a school teacher and an amateur writer. I've experienced depression for only a period of my life (somewhere between 14 and 20 years old). I could have had therapy but I didn't (I don't recommend trying to deal with it on your own! It's very dangerous to be alone and lost! I have an unsuccesful suicide attempt in my life! Looking back at me I feel sorry for my past self).

What I did was to try and understand the genesis of my sorrow and shake hands with it. The sadness was never gone, but when it came I could deal with it, talk to it, accept it, have some tea together. This way I've come to learn a lot about my own behavior.

My depression was based in being alone (no friends, even at work, nor partner), disliking my work (machinist), and also because of violence between my parents. At the apice of despair, when my father threatened my mom with a giant knife on his hand I had a violent fistfight with him in which we almost killed each other. Horrible memory. Tears of my mother. I left home. Lived alone for a while until I made some friends who live with me today. I'm attendeding Letters college to pursue my writing dream.

Over this path I've found more depressed people and was able to help them. I found it good to know that I have a human touch. People like to talk to me and, together, I've been able to help other people come and understand their sorrow. BUT I'M NO PROFESSIONAL!

I'm only a ghost, and this is not fiction.

[growingGRASS23]

How is your depression now? Are you on any medication or anything like that?

[Ghost]

Some close friends want me to start therapy. I know I should, just to stay put, but I really think I'm ok now. I don't cut myself anymore nor think of suicide. I've changed a lot from teenage to adult life. I'm not taking any meds also. Sometimes I get depressed for one or two days, but I guess that is normal. I kind of like to feel this way.

If I feel I'm losing control I'm ready for therapy.

[growingGRASS23]

That's how I was! My mom always basically begged me or whatever... anywho...It wasnt until recently i hit rock bottom. Its ALWAYS GOOD to go out and get help.. does not make you a weaker person! Im finally getting help.. lately ive been feeling like im in the slumps.. today I feel a little more like myself.

[Ghost]

That's how I was! My mom always basically begged me or whatever... anywho...It wasnt until recently i hit rock bottom. Its ALWAYS GOOD to go out and get help.. does not make you a weaker person! Im finally getting help.. lately ive been feeling like im in the slumps.. today I feel a little more like myself.

That's my main objective, to feel more like myself. I guess I lost a part of my identity back there, and now I'm trying to get it back. Things that happened are part of my past and they make me what I am today. Thanks =)