I am in the most extreme of circumstance with no way out. I lost my house in a mudslide. I am homeless soon with no money and 62 yrs old.i was a VP of a corporation that went bankrupt a few yrs ago. I mostly hate seattle and want to move but my wife wants to stay with her support group in seattle. Any advice on overcoming depression. I know I cannot survive another winter in seattle so I haveto get out this summer wife or not.
Better to be homeless in warm climate .
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Rambo123go
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i understand how you are thinking.what you do is your decision and yours alone.
but having been there,done it and failed i am glad that i am still alive.
my life and that of my wifes has been like one of those disaster movies where every thing that can go wrong has.schizophrenia ,suicide,cancer,deaths galore,disfigurement,unable to have children, constant pain etc... but we have picked our selves up ,dusted ourselves down and been better for the experience.
i'm not lecturing nor am i trying to talk about my wife and i, i'm just trying to say your pain is not unique , but you are, and it would be a shame if you left.
death comes to us soon enough , enjoy what you have for all the most beautiful things in life are free love , friendship, kindness, sunsets, walking on the beach....think about it ...take care.
but having been there,done it and failed i am glad that i am still alive.
my life and that of my wifes has been like one of those disaster movies where every thing that can go wrong has.schizophrenia ,suicide,cancer,deaths galore,disfigurement,unable to have children, constant pain etc... but we have picked our selves up ,dusted ourselves down and been better for the experience.
i'm not lecturing nor am i trying to talk about my wife and i, i'm just trying to say your pain is not unique , but you are, and it would be a shame if you left.
death comes to us soon enough , enjoy what you have for all the most beautiful things in life are free love , friendship, kindness, sunsets, walking on the beach....think about it ...take care.
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Rambo123go
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This is great that you reached out. I feel my end is near. The free things you mentioned I don't really have. No beach, few sunsets (I live in seattle where it's always gray) my depression started 3 years ago and my friends went away. I have no family ( the few I had died). I have incredible back pain on and on. The only thing I see is going to San Diego to be homeless . The cold, wet and dark of seattle is suffering beyond belief.
I was thinking of jumping off a building today or tomorrow. Looks like more of a sure thing than hanging.
I was thinking of jumping off a building today or tomorrow. Looks like more of a sure thing than hanging.
what ever your decision i respect it.
but i know of 6 people of your age group in the same position, maybe not how you lost your house , but without money.
but do me a favor and get on a bus and go somewhwere where there is not many people,next to the ocean, where it is sunny and warm, if only for a few days even if you don't have much money.
when your there think about all the people that you were friends with in your life, imagine there there with you.
if you do decide then to go, know that you are in my thoughts and that i do care .
take care
but i know of 6 people of your age group in the same position, maybe not how you lost your house , but without money.
but do me a favor and get on a bus and go somewhwere where there is not many people,next to the ocean, where it is sunny and warm, if only for a few days even if you don't have much money.
when your there think about all the people that you were friends with in your life, imagine there there with you.
if you do decide then to go, know that you are in my thoughts and that i do care .
take care
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Rambo123go
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Tell me a little.of your life story. What area of the country are you from?
I went the top of a building today but didn't have the guts to jump. Weather it was courage or cowardice to not do it I don't know
I have lost respect for myself for my poor decisions. Who would move from San Diego to seattle in the first place. I have two choices to live or not. To live means I move from seattle since I have an intense reaction to being here. I am losing my sanity from all the regrets and trauma. Can't sleep at night etc. I called about homeless shelters today. There doesn't seem to be much in San Diego. Don't see a way out of my mess of a life. I do know that it was not all bad luck. It was my bad decisions that put me here. I could have been retired by now but instead I am facing homelessness or death.
I went the top of a building today but didn't have the guts to jump. Weather it was courage or cowardice to not do it I don't know
I have lost respect for myself for my poor decisions. Who would move from San Diego to seattle in the first place. I have two choices to live or not. To live means I move from seattle since I have an intense reaction to being here. I am losing my sanity from all the regrets and trauma. Can't sleep at night etc. I called about homeless shelters today. There doesn't seem to be much in San Diego. Don't see a way out of my mess of a life. I do know that it was not all bad luck. It was my bad decisions that put me here. I could have been retired by now but instead I am facing homelessness or death.
i have been a schizophrenic all my life, and i live in australia in the countryside.
my neigbour a grazier/farmer next door had dementia he was going to have to be put in a home ,not remember his life and eventually be fed by a nurse. he had a moment of clarity and suicided at the back of his wool shed where he used to work.his wife found him,i took the ambulance/paramedics up to his body.
i looked at him with respect, he had been a very kind man,like his wife , and he had lived his life with dignity and in my eyes that's how he ended it. on his terms,on his land,outside his wool shed.
but unfortunatley he left his distraught wife,children and grandchildren searching for answers,it is very sad.
you are not a coward for not jumping , you had to have the courage not to jump.it takes courage to live ,to breath,to be.
the people i know of your age who are in your predicament all lost respect for themselves and anguished over their past decisions. but i said to them as i say to you we are not defined by our past but what we do in this moment.
as hard as it is to forget the past, you must .write it all down on a piece of paper and burn it. turn over a new leaf.not many people in life have a chance to start again we get lost in mortgages, debt you have a chance to create a new life for yourself.you can move anywhere, do anything.
these are your decisions and yours only.
take care of yourself
my neigbour a grazier/farmer next door had dementia he was going to have to be put in a home ,not remember his life and eventually be fed by a nurse. he had a moment of clarity and suicided at the back of his wool shed where he used to work.his wife found him,i took the ambulance/paramedics up to his body.
i looked at him with respect, he had been a very kind man,like his wife , and he had lived his life with dignity and in my eyes that's how he ended it. on his terms,on his land,outside his wool shed.
but unfortunatley he left his distraught wife,children and grandchildren searching for answers,it is very sad.
you are not a coward for not jumping , you had to have the courage not to jump.it takes courage to live ,to breath,to be.
the people i know of your age who are in your predicament all lost respect for themselves and anguished over their past decisions. but i said to them as i say to you we are not defined by our past but what we do in this moment.
as hard as it is to forget the past, you must .write it all down on a piece of paper and burn it. turn over a new leaf.not many people in life have a chance to start again we get lost in mortgages, debt you have a chance to create a new life for yourself.you can move anywhere, do anything.
these are your decisions and yours only.
take care of yourself
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