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[kevinmc]

I'm going through a divorce. We've been married for 20 years and have three children together. Because of my depression, and inability to deal with stress, I have been mean, but not violent, to my wife over the years. The stress this caused her made her stop loving me. So now I'm dealing with the loss of her love, the regret for my actions, and the anxiety of facing big changes all alone. Mornings are the worst. I wake up scared sad and crying. I really feel like I need a friend to communicate with.

[hollyann]

Hi Kevin. I'm so sorry you are having a hard time right now. I know you said you are getting divorced. It's hard to have to face changes alone but you have here now. You can always try the chat room as well so that you can have someone to talk to while you wait for replies for your post.

hollyann

[kevinmc]

I'm so sad. I feel like the rest of my life is going to feel like this. I have to act happy around my kids, because I have burdened them so much already. I always turned to my wife for support, and now I don't have her anymore. My parents and siblings have for the most part been great, but they are ready for me to move on, and I feel incapable of that right now. The pain just won't end. I have to get ready for work, at least I usually feel better there. Any communication and support would be greatly appreciated. I enjoy comforting others, but I don't know what I could do where I am now.