A Walk with Depression

[Meloncholic Anchovy]

I awoke this morning around 2am (courtesy of Zopiclone - x4 tablets) feeling not quite rested, and worse, feeling DOWN.

So I whiled away an hour or so on the Internet, checking mails and such, and soon became bored. I decided to shut down my PC & lay down in bed to perhaps fall asleep or just stare at the ceiling. After tossing and turning for about half an hour, this thought of taking a brisk walk (at around 3:30am) just wouldn't go away. So I relented, dressed up and still feeling half-hearted about the brisk walking in the dead of night, stepped out of my apartment.

Towards the end of my brisk walk, I picked up a wallet. And in it there was some several hundred dollars, along with credit cards and stuff. I stuffed it into my pocket and proceeded to complete my brisk walk.

You must be wondering if I'd return the money or not. Well, let me cut the suspense: NO, I will not. Why? Because it was meant for me.

By my action, what are your impression/judgement of me? Someone who has to deal with Suicidal Thoughts daily?

[dougsan]

The money isn't yours. Keeping it is catamount to stealing and has nothing to do with your suicidal thoughts. You know this or you wouldn't have posted. Give the money back and chat with some people on DU. You'll feel better.

[Meloncholic Anchovy]

The money isn't yours. Keeping it is catamount to stealing and has nothing to do with your suicidal thoughts. You know this or you wouldn't have posted. Give the money back and chat with some people on DU. You'll feel better.

Ah.. here is an interesting breakdown of the wallet I've found:
1. the money it held
2. the knowledge that it doesn't belong to me

However, the opportunity was and is - still mine. Hence the decision of returning the amount in currencies, is as well - mine. If since I would not feel good doing either, shall I destroy my find by fire and call it even?