I Don't Even Understand Myself

[Dizzylove2012]

Everyday i wake up and it gets harder and harder to get motivated and out of bed, I used to be such a morning person and i loved to wake up and start my day. Now it is such a chore...I dont understand it!

Everytime i look in the mirror i pick myself apart even though i have people in my life that tell me how amazing i am every day...i dont understand...i just hate myself.

I get so irritable with my boyfriend even when he does nothing wrong...which only upsets him and he doesnt understand how i feel or why i feel the way i do. He always asks for an explanation but how can i explain this to anyone else when i cant even explain it to myself? i feel like it would mark me as weak to say i think i have a problem or i think i need help, i dont think he would take me seriously. But i feel like i truly do need help. I hate doing things i used to love, im in college paying for classes and ive begun letting my grades slip which puts me in an even deeper hole mentally. Excuse me if this is TMI but my sex life sucks, i used to fully enjoy it and now i only do it for my boyfriend and dont even find pleasure there myself...what the heck is wrong with me??? at 22 years old my life should not be like this....how can anyone help me when i dont even understand myself???

[loveleighmummy]

Loss of motivation, loss of interest in things that once were pleasurable for you, self hatred...all classic symptoms of depression. If you feel you need help, GET IT. It may seem embarrassing at first to ask for help when you don't understand what it is your needing the help with, but left untreated this can get much much worse and become dibilitating. Seek professional help, please....it does help. And you are not alone!

[sbw]

One thing I have learned about depression, you feel bad and you don't know why. A good counselor is excellent at helping you identify what it is that is bothering you. YOu can go in, tell them your symptoms, and say, I have no idea what's wrong. it will take several sessions, maybe, but they will help you get tot he root of it. Counseling is great. They are trained to do that, and you don't have to tell anyone you are going. It's a doctor's appointment. But, main thing, you don't know why, a lot of times, it's deep and you're not sure what is causing the feeling. Counseling could be a big help. Helping yourself is a good thing. Going through it alone is hard. take care