Not sure where to begin

[Alyssa]

I'm not really sure where to begin. I have been feeling very exhausted lately. Today I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed or do anything. Some days I'm fine and completely happy. But sometimes I can't do anything.

I have a great support system but I can't bring myself to talk about how I feel to the people around me. My boyfriend is amazing but I always think that if I tell him how I feel he will think I'm crazy. The same with my friends I know that they support me and love me but there are always these feelings that come up in my mind that make me think that I'm not good enough or I'm not funny or smart or that no one likes me. Most of the time I can convince myself I'm being unreasonable but it's hard having to deal with these intruding thoughts constantly.

My family is hard. My mother is very negative and constantly pointing out my flaws. I'm 23 now so it's much easier not having to live with them and deal with her abuse on a regular basis. I love my parents but at the same time I long for a family that makes me feel like I'm special and that they love me.

I just want to be able to feel good about myself and not feel so helpless or worthless. I guess I just need encouragement.

[Dibs]

Hey Alyssa ...

Welcome to the forum. I hope you find encouragement here. I think you'll find a lot of people who understand ... I know I have personally had a pretty decent support system of friends/family before ... but it's hard when you don't feel like you can talk to them about the negative thoughts pouring through your head.

There are a lot of aspects of depression & anxiety that people have a hard time understanding. But there are things you can do to combat these things. Once you realize there are resources out there and you start to work through your issues ... it becomes easier to relate to the people in your life and have more healthy relationships. Like for example ... your mother. There are techniques you can learn that allow you to be ok with yourself and not buy into what she is saying about you.

Good luck to you.

[Ste]

Hi Alyssa,

if you'd like to talk about your issues and break them down I would love to help you feel better.

Please get in touch if you'd like a friend to talk to.

Regards

Steve

[Ribbitblues]

I have found common ground reading the new introduction posts. We moved recently and I have been struggling to find a new group of resources. Last night I took a huge chance , by writing down what I was feeling and showed it to my husband. I thought he would understand , but had a strong adverse reaction and I ended up on the couch speaking to suicide prevention all night. I feel even worse now and needed to find some way of coping I do have an appointment in a couple of weeks with a psychiatrist. I saw one counselor however I felt very strongly that I could not trust him. I am still looking, but just needed to be around others who can relate,understand and not be angry with me for how I am feeling. It is a great help just reading posts and seeing I am not the only one with these feelings.

[hollyann]

(((((((ribbitblues))))))) (((((alyssa))))))))))

[loveleighmummy]

Alyssa,
My mother is also very negative and always pointing out my flaws (and at 32 years old I am homeless and staying with her) I can relate to you in that aspect. It can be very frustrating. Just try to remember that your issues are not your fault, you didn't choose to be this way, and are doing the best you can, even if your mother can't see that.

[amurfriend]

Dear I read your post and find that these days this kind of situation is not uncommon with the current lifestyle. we can chat it out and you will get back to being the actual self you are soon.

I would like to get more details if you would like to share. If you wish to discuss mail me at [email protected] or [email protected]

take care bye

enjoy life. love yourself that is the best thing. keep smiling