hopefully this helps someone

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i am a catatonic paranoid chronic schizophrenic, i have ocd, clinical depression,ptsd , i go into psychosis regularly.i hear and see demons and angels all the time, i see hell below my feet. i do not take meds.
i was sexually abused by my father and mentally abused by my mother, what she did was far worse.
i tried to commit suicide at 15,i was 15 minutes from being brain dead.
i tried 4 times after that.
i self harmed by cutting up my head because i did not want to look like my pedophile father.
my phychiatrist wanted to put me in a mental asylum when i was 26, he said i was the worst case he had ever seen, if i had gone in i never would have come out.
i have helped my wife through cancer, and i try not to kill anything i guess i have a Buddhist mentality to life.
life is hard but i see so many beautiful things each day, like a flower growing through the crack in the pavement, that i am glad i'm alive .Be strong and kind to your self and others and keep going.